Thursday, December 30, 2010

Missing in Action

So I've been missing for a few days and that is because we have been hunting for a new car. We need a mom mobile to take our soon to be two kidies around and we have found ourselves a nice used 2007 Toyota Matrix, so our Toyota Celica will have some nice company. We visited four different dealerships, test drove a bunch of cars, and then ended up at the dealer we got our Celica from and found our happy compromise car. We would have loved a prius or something more sporty but we like fuel economy and I love the plastic trunk and the leftover money that will buy us snow tires too.

So I'll post some photos when I can, but I also finished my baby's room so I can take photos of that in the sunlight tomorrow and you can see how wonderful her room looks. Now she has a slight fever tonight so hopefully she'll be back to her good old self tomorrow and we can enjoy our weekend at home.

Have a great day! Oh an no running yet this week so let's hope for tomorrow when I won't be spending hours at car dealerships.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Seriously sick.

Okay, so I love being pregnant despite the waking up to pee and eating like a crazy person, but the worst is when you get really sick because you can't take anything! Yes I know I can take Tylenol but my mom and I have this funny thing where anything less than Tylenol 3 does nothing for us, so yeah, I've been seriously sick since December 23rd and haven't been able to take a bloody thing! And I mean seriously sick, I've had horrible headaches, throat pain, sinus pain, cough, phlegm, running nose, aches, and loss of appetite. I'm finally starting to feel a bit better. So today I'm a 6/10 on the pain scale instead of 9 or 11, so it's really a sticky little evil cold. I think my baby has got it to a lesser degree since she doesn't have much of an appetite the last few days but at least she's happy to drink herself silly with juice so that's good.

Running has not happened since the cold hit me but I'm hopeful that with both me and my husband being off work until January 4th that I'll get a few runs in once my energy level is back. The other positive thing is that my cleaning lady comes for her first visit tomorrow, hurray, and I've finally got some good work done on my daughters big girl room so I feel great about that.

So to make everyone smile, here is my lovely 16 week belly shot. I'm almost half-way through my pregnancy so that is a great thing and near the end of January I'll know if we're having a little boy or a little girl. I promise to publish some photos of Lillian's big girl room once I get it finished.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Just a quick little update.

So things here have been going well. I'm still tired and gaining more weight than I'd like to at this point but that's all part of being a mommy. So today is my birthday and my hubby and my best friend took me out for dinner. No running as of this week but I'm hopeful for next week but we'll see what my life brings! Hope you're all doing well getting ready for whatever holiday you are celebrating!

Baby visiting her Oma.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

She's her daddy's girl.

Do you ever look at your children and see all of your spouse and none of you? I've been having that with my little girl as of late. She is such a daddy's girl and takes after his side of the family. She has his (and his dad's) hair, his eyes, his smile, and so far we know she has my temper (not a good thing). I never really noticed it until recently but that may just be because I'm feeling down lately. This second pregnancy has me so tired I think I'm losing my mind. But the good news is that my hubby is giving me a wonderful birthday/Christmas gift which is having our house professionally cleaned so I can spend my holiday resting NOT cleaning. Then in 2011 when he goes back to work, they'll keep coming and clean our house monthly. So at least once we're both working I won't have to worry about keeping the house clean as much and it means our chore list will be much smaller! So at least there is one light in my tunnel. So enjoy the photo of my hubby and my little one to see how much she looks like her dada.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Pregnant Running Sucks.

Okay, so I am now 14.5 weeks along, and have been trying to run at least 5km once a week and it is so hard. I could only go for 15 minutes (1 mile) today before I just got too tired to keep going. Today is my day off, meaning hubby and the monkey are visiting his dad, so I should be resting for how tired I am but instead I am cleaning and trying to run and trying not to each 10,000 calories. I feel like a failure right now. I said I would keep running, and not let this pregnancy stop me, but I am so tired this pregnancy and still feel sick all the time. It wasn't this hard with Lillian but I didn't have a Lillian to chase after either.

So now I just feel like a failure and a loser and wish that I was stronger than I am. I'll try to run again later tonight but I don't know how that will go. Maybe I'll feel better in a little while, or a few days. It has been an emotional week with my Opa and everything. Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself and need to cut myself some slack.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Meanie Peanie Husband.

Okay if you don't want to read about me complaining about my hubby then you should stop reading right now. Nope, still interested, okay then.

So I'll start by admitting that honestly my hubby is pretty much a saint. Yes he drives me NUTS sometimes but the man has the patience of Ghandi, which is good because otherwise I would be a single mother now. And I admit I am not always the easiest to live with, especially now that my horromones are bouncing off the wall, but today I feel unfairly slighted. I had a baby play date today with my girlfriends so I was gone from 7:30am until 5:30pm, so I figured my hubby would want to spend time with me once I was home, that was my first misassumptions. Though why on earth he told me he was lonely today if he didn't want to be around me I don't know.

So anyway back story, even though he's off on unpaid parental leave right now our money situation is okay. We are okay because we track and watch our money and don't waste it on things we don't need. That being said, since losing weight I have bought barely any new clothes. This also includes new maternity clothes. While most maternity clothes are equal, everything I have is an XL and I'm not a M so the pants look like a 9 month pregnant me would fit into them, maybe, and little 3 1/2 month pregnant me has NOTHING that actually fits me properly. So I bare the pain of pulling my pants up every 5 minutes and have bought like 2 pairs of pants at value village to keep me from going crazy. So while at my girlfriend's house today I mention jokingly how nothing fits and I've been wearing the same pants for three days because they are the only ones that fit right. My mommy friend only has 2 jeans she wears at home so she made me feel better, but my other friend disappears and comes back into the room with 2 huge totes of .... wait for it ... her maternity pants! While she's taller than me all her stuff pretty much is an M so most of it FITS ME! She loaded me up with all her nice clothes and told me to just sent them back next year when she's pregnant again. I could have cried for joy! I have a larger wardrobe now than when I was heavy and had everything from a 12-18 in my closet!

So I come home super excited and my hubby brings the HUGE boxes upstairs for me. He helped me to remove my non-pregnancy clothes and then I asked him to help me hang the new clothes. I thought it would be fun, since they are free and we didn't see each other all day. I don't know if he just couldn't care less about how excited I was or if he got mad that I had him pack up 15 of his 60 t-shirts because I needed the hangers (mind you he only wears the same 10 anyway) but he got really cranky about it and didn't want to help and that made me sad. I hadn't seen him all day, I'm so excited about the clothes and he's just being a huge stick in the mud. So I told him he could just go. He claims I didn't appreciate him helping but I've told him ten times tonight how much I appreciate him and he NEVER tells me how much he appreciates me having this second baby and that I am gaining back ALL the weight I works all year to lose. But I digress. So he missed out on my trying the new stuff on and getting all excited picking my outfit out for tomorrow. I have never had so many clothes and I just can't believe my luck. I was expecting to spend the remaining 6 months waiting to fit into my 5 pairs of pants and alternating my 7 shirts, but now I have + 25 shirts and like 10 pants/skirts.

So I'm so happy, I just wish he could have been less annoyed at helping me and maybe joined in my excited a little more. Maybe if I told him the value of the clothes had we bought them all new would be over $1,000 he would have been more enthused. Oh well. I love him very much, but some days he seems to want to rain on my parade.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Horrible Pregnancy Experience.

Okay at the riskof possibly giving too much information, I had the WORST pregnancy experience today. I was taking all my vitamins, halfway through dinner like I always do, and my folic acid pill got stuck in the back of my throat. It's one of those dry, chaulky pills, and it STUCK. So long story short, I ended up losing most of my dinner due to it, and no I didn't make it to the bathroom. So now my throat is killing me, and I can still feel the chalky gunk stuck in my throat. Plus there goes my plan to run a bit this evening. Now all I want to do is hide in my bed. Boo-erns!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

RIP Opa.

Lillian and Opa in November.
Lillian and Opa in May.
So I got some sad news today. My Opa passed away last night in his sleep. He's been battling bladder cancer since before Lillian was born and that's why we went to visit him again in November. I'm really glad we went again and that he got to meet Lillian and see her twice. He was a strong and proud man and at the end he was losing the ability to do things for himself, and that was something he always dreaded. He died at home, in his sleep, surrounded by the love his wife, son and daughter-in-law. He oldest son had visited him in September and his granddaughter, grandson-in-law, and great granddaughter were by his side in November. He never had to go into a hospital since my uncle is a nurse and could care for him at home. I'm thankful he is no longer in pain, but he will be missed dearly.

RIP Opa. I'll always love you.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I wanna run!

My plan was to run yesterday but it didn't happen because my husband had a thing today and had to prepare for it. So I was hopeful I could run this afternoon but between picking up my monkey from daycare and making all the phone calls I had to make (and it was like 4 or 5) I didn't get a chance.

So now, my plan is to run tonight after dinner. Wish me luck!

Update at 8:40pm! I ran for 45 minutes! Woot!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Couch Potato Me.

So today I'm tired. What does that mean? It means my hubby went out tonight and I put my monkey to bed and sat my butt on the couch! Now I've had a good rest and I need to go pack my lunch and breakfast for tomorrow. I have 2 two hour long meetings and I'm working later than usual tomorrow so it's going to suck! To make all you people out in blog world smile, here is our Christmas photo for this year!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Look, look, look! I ran!

I shouldn't be so excited about a little 5km treadmill run but boy I am!! I haven't run in almost a month. While on vacation I did a LOT of walking, some days over 2 hours, but no running. I found it hard to do the 15km race while pregnant because of how tired I am but with Lillian I started to feel better between 12 and 14 weeks so I figured I'd wait until I hit the 12 week mark (which I did this week) and then get back into the habit, and I started it today with a 5km run on my treadmill. I took it easy on my run, which my doctor asked me to do, so I only went 4.5 miles/hr instead of my 5.5 but I still felt good and am happy. I am also glad that I ran on my treadmill since I had to pee in my little run which means if I was outside it would have sucked!

12 weeks along. Much larger already than with Lillian but that's okay.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I'm back.

So I'm back in Canada and happy to be here, even if this week was NUTS! So because the week is so nuts here are some trip photos. Stories will have to wait until the weekend when I have 10 minutes time.

One fun bit of news, is that that I heard my baby's heartbeat today and it was in the 160's. Nice and strong just like Lillian's was! Another 7 weeks and we'll get our first ultrasound and find out if it's a boy or girl!
Lillian with her mommy, great grandpa and great aunt.

At the fountain in front of my grandparents' house.

Looking cute on the old cobble stone streets.

Working on this walking thing outside of opa's childhood school.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Leaving on a jet plane.

**Warning today's post has some sad stuff in it and isn't for the faint of heart.**

Lillian trying to climb my leg.
So tomorrow my happy little family and I are heading off on a little trip to Germany. My Opa has been really sick this past year. He had surgery to remove a tumor last September and they missed one of them, and now it has spread. I'm realistic in the fact that he is 78 now and has lived a long and good life and even lived to hold his great-granddaughter. I hope we are all that lucky, yet it doesn't make this visit any easier. He won't make it through the Winter so it is the last time I will see him so that is a bit hard on me. I like to think of this as my final gift I can give to him. He's my father's father and I've always been closer with my dad's parents so it is important to me to be able to see him one last time. Though it will not be easy emotionally, mentally or physically. I'm exausted right now from the pregnancy and not sure how Lillian will do not being able to move around a lot for 8 hours on a plane. I'm hoping that she'll sleep for a portion for the flight since we'll be flying during bed time but I don't know. I also worry about her car seat not arriving there and us having to go buy one.

I also don't like flying so that isn't helping with my mood about the whole trip but I'm sure it'll all work out. So I won't be posting until I get back, and hopefully will have some nice hiking stories (it's really hilly there so I can't run but some relaxed or slow hiking should be okay for me).

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Figuring things out!

Lillian in the baking cupboard.
Daddy must not have been paying attention.
So now I'm spending the next week getting ready for our trip to see my Opa and trying to get through a CRAZY week at work. I know I'll make it but this week SUCKS so much and with my late hours I can pretty much kiss running goodbye until this weekend. I may be able to run on Thursday but otherwise I doubt it. My work right now is physical and mental so that really takes a lot out of me. I try to avoid wishing my life away but I make an exception for this week, especially since I haven't slept through the night since September.  I can handle a few bad nights but this is ridiculous! For those of you who didn't understand my "5th person" in the photo of why I sucked at my race, I found out at the start of October, that I'm pregnant again. I actually found out on my fourth day back at work and I'd always joked that I'd get pregnant right after going back to work, but we were still pleasantly surprised how quickly it happened. So because of my thyroid I have been ordered by my doctor to take it easy which is why I couldn't push myself in the race. But now I just want this baby to let me sleep! I feel so nauseous this time around and can't rest like I did with Lillian because I am busy chasing Lillian so I can't rest. But I know it's worth it! As long as this little monkey is as healthy and happy as my little girl I'll be good.

In a week or two I'll start posting some bump photos. Right now I'm at the "fat cow" stage where nothing normal really fits and nothing maternity does either. I want to hit 12 weeks so I can tell work and stop feeling like everyone thinks I'm fat! :)

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Horror Hill Run Results.

 So I finished my Horror Hill Run today, and honestly it didn't go near as good as I had hoped and planned. I ended up coming in dead last (which means I had a police escort), but that's okay. I ran a 8:13/km pace, and my best is far faster than that. It took 2:03 for me to finish the race.

The four Hanovs.
I didn't feel so great last night, and then this morning I felt really sick. After my thyroid pill it got worse, and then I had to force myself to eat my oatmeal and my tummy was still upset. Then at the race it was very windy and cold, and my legs were NOT feeling it.

At the 2km mark heading to the horror hill. Alice, Steve, Lillian and Cecilia.
If my friend Cecilia hadn't been there I probably would have given up at the 5km mark and headed home. That's the part of the race that was 1.2km away from my house. But in the end I pushed on and now am over my fear of coming in last, and next year Steve had better watch out because I will kick his butt, next time. One funny thing was my police escort had to wait for me while I snuck into the bush to pee at the 9km mark.

In all honesty I had to take my run really easy. I could have pushed myself harder but wasn't allowed to. To the right is the group photo of when my mom brought Lillian to the race to take a photo. It's just past the 2km mark and as you can see there are 5 people in this photo, and it was the silly 5th person who made me have to run slow, and feel a nauseous and not be at my best. But that's okay, because these are the sacrifices you make when you're a mom.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Less than 48 hours!

The title says it all. Less than 48 hours to go. I will be running at 10am on Saturday morning.

Eikkkk! So excited. I promise to post a long blog entry on the weekend about my run and how everything went. Hope everyone is having a nice week.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Countdown Continues.

So now my last race of 2010 is only 4 days away. I am going to be running on Saturday at 10am and I can't wait. I'm super excited about it. My friend and I are going to plan our strategy for beating my hubby so I am excited for that. I don't know if I can actually manage to beat him but I'm sure going to try.

Today at work we had a retirement lunch for a few of our faculty members and it was great. I got to see a lot of people who I haven't seen since before I left on maternity leave and it was great. They couldn't believe how skinny I've become and that was a nice ego boost for me. I even managed to avoid dessert at lunch, since I knew I was going out for dinner for my girlfriend's birthday so I ate really light and well at lunch so I could enjoy my steak at dinner. YUM! I also had a baked potato which was yummy and Lillian feasted on fresh fruit, bread and jello of all things. :) My monkey loves the Jello. Such a funny baby.

In other fun news we are going to get a new car in early 2011. I love our Celica but Lillian's larger car seat is going to be really hard to work with in it, so we are hunting for the car that will allow us to upsize our family and car seats. Right now if we were to have another baby we couldn't get both into the car because you can't put a baby seat behind the driver, at least not if my husband needs to drive the car EVER. So new car hear we come. The photo above is of Lillian's new toy, called the toilet brush. She is also mesmerized by the flushing toilet.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

8 days to go.

Okay so now it's only 8 days until my 15km hill run. Eikkk! Feeling a bit nervous but I am going to rock it. I want to beat Steve but we'll see if my little legs manage that but having goals is always good even if you can't hit them on the first go!

That's all for today. Sorry my post is so short but I'm tired tonight!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Happy Birthday Lillian.

So Sunday was my little one's first birthday. We had a big party for her with all our family and some of our good friends and it went very well. Lillian didn't cry or freak out and she got some very cute new clothes and loads of fun toys. She was happy for most of the day, and she enjoyed the birthday cake and mushed it up really good. She was so cute and I am very happy with how it all turned out. Now she's a year old and becoming my big girl.

On a side note I managed to run home from work today for the first time ever which made me feel really proud of myself. I was a bit nervous since I didn't know what to expect or who hard the hills would be on foot but I'm glad that it went well. So now I'm planning my next run home again and looking forward to spending more time with my baby in the evenings. Hope you're all doing well.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Why the slacker?

So in case you haven't noticed I've been slacking as of late. There are several major reasons for it. The first being I'm back at work and trying to find a new balance is taking longer than expected. Mainly every minute from the second I get home until Lillian heads to bed is spent with her, and after that I really only have an hour or two to spend with the hubby and get ready for the next day. So it's not just you that I'm neglecting it's my running. That's right. A running blog with little running = BORING!

The next thing is that I have been kinda put on a temporary easy training. My thyroid is still an issue, and my doctor has put me on medication. It's not nearly as bad as before (meaning I'm on the border of okay) but the symptoms are still there and they are getting hard to deal with. The biggie is the nausea and feeling dizzy so my doctor wants me to scale things back while I adjust to things. I'm fine with that. I only have 11 days until my Horror Hill Run. Though I'm allowed to run it I just have to make sure I take it a bit easy and don't get over tired. My friend Cecilia will be running it with me so she'll make sure I finish in a good time but don't over do it. It's good to have friends like her.

Lastly, my weight has not moved so I'm taking a bit of a break. I'm switching to maintenence for a while to keep the pounds I've lost off and not feel bummed that it's not moving. I figure once I'm allowed to rock it again on the running I'll be able to pump it and get back to dropping the last 5lbs I have left to lose. Maybe I'll just wait until I have another baby to lose those pounds. I did it after Lillian so maybe I'll just have to wait for that. Here's hoping my next run lasts longer than 20 minutes.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Countdown.

So today I realized that I only have 17 days until my Horror Hill Run. I'm both excited and nervous. I've been really tired lately so my runs haven't been the greatest and my doctor told me to take it easy with all the thyroid issues I've been having so that means I can't push myself as much as I normally would. But one thing of pride is that on the weekend my husband and I went running with Lillian in the stroller and I pushed her up our horror hill and he had to struggle to keep up with me! That was a real moment of pride. I'm also proud of our little monkey who now has 5 teeth with 3 more on the way in!

Saturday is going to be her birthday party so I am looking forward to it, and took the Friday off so I can prepare everything for the party and not stress out on Saturday am. We'll be having lasagna (already bought and in the freezer), cake (one ordered and one that I'll make), chips, veggies with dip and other such yummy goodies. We picked lasagna because Lillian loves it, same with the type of cake. So now I can't believe that my little one is already a whole year old! Guess it's time to start planning number 2! :)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

One week down.

Okay, so I survived my first week back at work, and honestly it wasn't all that bad. I enjoyed being around grownups and getting to talk about real things (not babbling back made up words to Lillian or singing all day). But now it's a long weekend here (Happy Thanksgiving) and I've been enjoying myself with my little one. We played with blocks, picked out Halloween pumpkins, ate turkey, made super yummy mushroom barley soup, and already got two runs in. Tomorrow we'll rest, get another run in and spend LOADS of time with my little one. I think all around it should be a fabulous day.

Next weekend is my little one's first birthday and we have a wonderful party planned. Now I'm trying to decide what to get her for her birthday. So far we have the Hungry, Hungry Catepillar and I think we'll get her a shirt too but I don't want to buy her very much since I want to wait until after her birthday to see what everyone else is getting her so that she doesn't get duplicates. So here are some pumpkin photos from our little trip today and I hope everyone has a nice turkey day. I know I have, and I especially have a lot to be thankful for this year.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Back at her.

Okay so it's the start of my first full week back at the office with my hubby staying home. I had planned to attend kickboxing tonight but the baby didn't want to nap this afternoon and so guess what she did 15 minutes after I go home, yup she went down for her nap. Now I'm sitting here hoping that she'll wake up so I can have some time with her before I leave at 7pm, and if she sleeps for a while I don't know if I can leave her again today.  I don't get all that much time with her in the evenings so if she sleep through a whole bunch of it I don't think I can leave. I'll want to stay and cuddle her and put her to bed. So now I don't know what to do with my evening since she was supposed to be awake and playing with me, and now she's sleeping.

This working mom thing is NOT easy!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Back to Reality.

Okay so I spent my first day back at the office today. All in all it went pretty good. I did sneak out 15 minutes early but I don't think anyone cared. I didn't get as much done in the settling in front as I had hoped but it will all be there Monday waiting for me. I didn't think about the fact that my co-advisor was in for her last day before maternity leave and we were in the same office for the day because of that and I didn't have my computer for a little over two hours which I wasn't planning on. But I got all my Lillian photos set up and my computer and chair are still there so I'll be fine. Next week is a 5 day week so it'll be a lot harder. So now I can look forward to my dinner party tomorrow and spending my weekend with my baby!

On the WI front, still no moving. Maybe next week will have the scale dropping a bit.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Clothes and Jewels and Shoes, Oh My!!

So this is my blog dedicated to my new wardrobe!

The first two shots are of my mommy clothes. I have several different coloured tops (like the peach one) and a few frilly skirts (like the brown one) in black, white and brown. The light green top is my vavoom top which I bought for my hubby. I only wear it out of the house with a sweater or cardigan on top or undershirt underneath it but at home I wear it alone and let my hubby enjoy what it shows off. The belt I'm wearing with it is my big one to wear with longer shirts and I LOVE it! Very bohemian and I got a pair of earrings that match it almost perfectly.

Here you can see my shoe collection! The brown, black, and grey heels I are old. Same with the grey flats. The rest are all new and I can't wait to wear my matching shoes. The red and grey flats will stay at home since I would rather save the red ones for fun nights out than with my work clothes. To the left, is my new cream jacket. I also managed to snag a wicked jeans jacket, and my mom had a really nice old white winter jacket that she hardly ever wore to go with my cool black puffy jacket that I got last winter but didn't fit me.
So combined with my multiple sets of knitted hats and scarves I made myself I will look pretty chic walking to and from the bus/office this fall/winter. And to the left is my jewelry hanger. I must admit that most of the necklaces are old but I didn't always wear them. This year I plan to wear one almost everyday and the matching earrings too!

Next you'll see a few of my sample outfits. I just grabbed a few of my pants at random and paired them up with a few of my cute tops. In reality I have more than double the amount of pants, and probably triple the number of tops. I love the brown cardigan to the left (Reitmans) and my awesome black jeans (Gap). I also managed to snag a few pairs of corduroy pants (brown and black) to keep me warm in the winter.
Lillian decided that she needed to be part of this photo shoot and crawled over to me. I love the cream pants I found (Tommy) because they are SOOO comfortable and the green shirt has a bit of a subtle pattern on it you can only see up close.
I also managed to get a few sophisticated blouses to go along with black slacks(both solid & pinstriped).
Finally I got a few simple long sleeved shirt like the green one to the left, and some really fun skirts. I'm proud that all of my long sleeved shirts are different. I worked really hard to try and be unique since my old way was a shirt that fit and looked decent on me and bought it in five colours instead of looking for a different shirt. This black skirt one is my favourite because it's a bit thick/snug on my tummy, so it hides things, and then gets really big and flippy on the bottom so it really flys when you spin!

Lastly you get a peek inside of my closet so please forgive the messiness. Everything from the blue polkadots on the far left to the cream coloured knitted shirt (by the green sweater and empty hangers) is work clothes. Everything on the right is home clothes. I'm pleased by how much colour there is now! As for my pants/skirts I have managed to buy them in pairs! I have a pair of black slacks, a pair of corduroys, a pair of cream, and then a pair of capri slacks, the black jeans and a few skirts. To the far right you can see my tights hanging up. I am very excited to be able to wear skirts in the winter with these thick tights.

I also got some new undergarments which I was in serious need of but there you have it! I have spent a small fortune to be able to go back to work in style by 75% of the clothes came from second hand stores and what was new was by gift cards or was purchased new because I won't buy it used (like bras). So I think I did pretty good and hopefully after I lose my final stupid 6lbs everything will still fit fine.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Cheese Muchies.

So I think my title says it all. I have been having the cheese munchies lately.  I keep eating my weight watchers wrap with melted cheese and I have no quams about it. This might be one of the reasons I have stalled on my weight loss a bit but I can handle this. I am going back to work on Friday and that means next week I will be crazy busy and have my eating routine back which will be good for me. I also have a nice 15km run planned for tomorrow (with my running friend so I can't miss it) and that will help me. Right now I'm happy that I have maintained for the last 6 weeks. And in the next few weeks there is so much going on what with a dinner party this weekend, my baby's first birthday bash, and thanksgiving all coming up in the next three weeks I will be happy not to gain. Sorry that this is so much of a rambly post but I do have a lot of things on my mind as of late and they come out a little bit scattered at times.

So thanks for all your kind and supportive comments. They really help make me feel that I am not going through this alone and give me a boost of confidence when I need it. I also plan to take some great photos of my new work clothes as I go to work so that I can post them and show them off to all my wonderful blog readers. Thanks for listening and helping me believe in me when I didn't.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Still feeling it.

My monkey working on this walking thing.
Okay so it's been a week since I did my half-marathon and honestly I'm still feeling it. I have done two small hill training runs this week (meaning I did my hill run that is 4.6km twice) and I can feel it in my legs when I'm running. Overall I'm feeling great, my legs work when I run, my lungs have no problems (even in today's cold weather) and I still have the half-marathon high. My husband can't believe it that my race was only last weekend. I enjoyed my four day rest period and now this week I'm going to kick things up a notch and then take my first day back at work off. I can't believe that I am going to be back at work on Friday. I am looking forward to going back to the office so I can show off the skinny new me and wear all my pretty new clothes but I'm going to miss my cuddle time with my baby. So now I'm trying to teach my hubby to do all the things that I do with her. And honestly he is doing a great job so that makes going back a lot easier, but she is so close to walking and I'm sad that she will likely walk while I'm at work and I'll miss it.

On a funny side my baby made me laugh so hard yesterday. Her little face was covered in chocolate and she managed to smear it all over her pants and shirt and then she crawled into the tipped over laundry basket and sat there looking at me, almost as if to say "I'm dirty and need to be washed." It was hilarious. It's moments like these that I am going to miss when I'm back at work!

Stay tuned for later this week when I publish a recipe for Mushroom, Bean and Barley soup we created this weekend and it is AMAZING!!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Run for the Grapes Half-Marathon Recap.


Me coming into the finish lane.

Changing my path to kiss Lillian
Okay so it's over and I am still so sore form it, but it was worth the pain. I pushed myself harder this race than ever before! My last 5km were faster than the first 5km and my last half km was my fasted pace ever putting me at a pace of 5:31. Needless to say I saw my baby at the end and I booted it. I even stopped just a few metres from the finish line to give her a kiss before I finished. I think next time my hubby will wait on the other side of the finish line. I don't care either way I just needed to hug my baby. It's true what they say about a half-marathon being very much mental as physical and at the end I needed to see my baby. I was tired, and sore and wanted to cry or give up but I knew my baby believed in me and was waiting for me and she kept me going.

Me crossing the finish line.
So here are my stats for finishing this race:
  • Fastest full km was 6:24 and it was km 21
  • Slowest non-stopping km (I stopped once to use the bathroom) was 7:19 and it was km 10
  • I ran the race in 2:30:48 according to the chip and my garmin
  • I ran it in 2:31:31 according to the clock
  • My average pace was 7:06 
  • I ranked 452/471 people running the half
  • I ranked 29/32 women aged 25-29
  • I ranked 214/229 women running the race
  • I improved my time by 18:09 from my last half in April
  • I only stopped/slowed down to drink water at the aid stations and to use the port-a-potty
So now that it's over I'm looking forward to may final race of 2010 which will be the Horror Hill Run in 38 days. I'm giving myself a few days off until I run again. Today is rest day number 2 of 4. I will run again Friday. Right now I'm going to enjoy my rest days since I pushed myself harder at the end of that race than I ever have before and it felt amazing, but my poor legs are paying for it today still.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Success.

It's over. I did it. I ran my second half marathon in 2:30:48 which is 18:09 faster than my first half in April so that is awesome!

Larger post about the run and our trip tomorrow. Right now I need rest!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Countdown.

Half-marathon is less than 19 hours.

Feeling super nervous but also excited. Time to head to St.Catharines with my baby and hubby.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Quickie post.

Weighed in today, and I am still 148.4lbs. That's 4 weeks in a row now. I won't complain though. With my thyroid issues right now I'm really just happy to not gain plus I've lost 45lbs this year I think my body is still catching up with that.

I'm less than 48 hours until my half and I am freaking sick AGAIN! How unfair is this? I was sick in April for my first race, and now for my second I'm freaking sick again. Different kind of cold but still SO annoyed!! Oh well, I'm going to run it and do my best and pump myself full of drugs again and then take next week off of running to heal and recoup and be all set for my 15km in October. Still mad.

Baby now has 4 teeth. Two on top have both broken through now so that is a good thing since it means she is going to be less cranky but makes me worry about possible biting. I think I may have to stop nursing when I go back to work in 9 days.

So overall I'm okay with not losing weight, really nervous for the race because of my cold, wanting to cry because of leaving my baby soon and my hubby has the afternoon off so I get some alone time to do some shopping while he practices being a stay at home dad. Wish him luck!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

5 days left.

Okay so my countdown continues and I have 5 days left until my half-marathon. I did a nice little speed run tonight, going 2.3 miles at 6.0 mph, 1.6 miles at 5.5 mph and 0.1 miles at 4.2mph which makes me feel good and proud. I'm feeling on top of the world since my friends are all encouraging me and wishing me luck but my nerves are still squeaking to me a little bit and that is making my tummy flutter a bit. But on a positive note Steve has agreed to go out for pasta with me for dinner on Saturday night which is great since it's such a good meal before running and we both LOVE Boston Pizza but usually can't deal with the crazy amount of calories in their food so I guess if running a half-marathon is what it takes to earn a Boston Pizza dinner and some other awesome lunch the next day I think it's worth it. So now I just realized I get to pick a restaurant for lunch on Sunday too! Oh how exciting!! :)

Monday, September 13, 2010

Let the countdown begin.

Okay so it's only 6 days until my half-marathon and I am totally freaking!! Yesterday I ran 14km and today I felt really drained until just a little while ago. I am nervous since I have to take a cab to the start of the race and will be running all alone. My hubby and baby will be waiting at the finish line for me (providing she cooperates and lets him get there at the same time) and I'm feeling bad because my friends were supposed to run with me and are not. But a little bit of fear is good for me and I know it will only make me stronger. I'm trying really hard to stay positive and be excited but I'm worried about not finishing it in the 3 hours time alloted. Last time I ran 21km I did so in 2:49 and now am hopeful to do it in 2:40 and when I ran yesterday I actually was faster than my pace I need to go in order to hit that time (and by faster I mean like 4 whole minutes faster) so I was rocking it!
Lillian helping me make pizza sauce.
Now I guess I just need to stay strong and focused and then next week I can stress out about why I can't lose any weight! :)

Friday, September 10, 2010

Plateau.

My two loves!
Stupid evil scale. At least it didn't go up. Oh well. Three weeks now I'm stuck in the same 0.2lbs keeping me at 148.2lbs. Though I really shouldn't complain. It took 8 months and 43.8lbs gone for me to hit a plateau so that is cool. I know it's probably from stressing out over having to go back to work in 20 days (where did this year go) and running my second half-marathon next weekend. I can deal with this no problem and will keep working at it. Once my half is over I'll work on speed training, as in short runs where I push harder than usual like I did the other day running 5km at 6mile/hr and shake my food up a bit. For the next 10 days though I want to stick with what I know since that is what works for me running.

Anywho just wanted to say grrrr at the scale, and now off to find some lunch. Lillian is teething, top left tooth broke through the gums last night so she's keeping me on my toes today.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Lots going on.

So as the title implies there is lots going on in my house lately. My dog is at a new family (another new family) for a week trial but since this one has a goldendoodle already I think this will work out. In running, I did the mini hill run yesterday with my hubby and my baby in her stroller and it felt awesome! I also did an amazing 5km run today where I did the whole time at 6 miles/hr which makes it the fastest run ever. Woot! I have also made my decision about the half-marathon and am going to do the Saint Catherine's Run for the grape. I figured things out with hubby so it'll work out. Now today I have to find and book a hotel, then the morning of I will take a taxi to the event so the baby can sleep in and then get up with her daddy and start her day as per usual and they will head down closer to the time when I will end the run. So my goal for said run is to finish it in 2:40 or less! That means I need to run 7.95km/hr or 7:33 per km. So I can set up my little garmin to let me know that I am rocking that pace and then I'll totally make my goal. So now I'm slowing down my running a bit, and have one long run (15-17km) left to go on Thursday or Friday and then a few nice 5-8km runs and I'm going to do my race.

So this is my goal and after that I have to focus on going back to work and getting my hill runs in before that run. Hope you're all doing well.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Confused.

So I'm feeling a bit confused today. I know I want to run a half-marathon in September, but I'm wondering if running in Toronto a week later (September 26th) might be better for our little family than running in St.Catherines on the 19th. Right now I can't find a hotel for the 19th race b/c there is a wine and food festival going on and that is where the race starts and ends. Though the one starts at 9:30am so we'd have time for my hubby to drive me there and drop me off and then go off with the baby while the other one starts are 7:30am so it would be really tight to go there and get it all done.

I want to register for my race by Monday so I really have to get off my butt and make up my mind. Earlier in the day, closer to the race, easier for my baby and hubby, more things to do on the Saturday beforehand. There are so many things to consider. I'll let you know what I decide!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

August Summary.

So here is the end of August summary!! Woot woot!

I have managed to run 216.4km this month in 27 hours and 5 minutes, which is the MOST I've ever run! My old record was in March, where I hit 212km but it took me 4 hours and 3 minutes extra than this month which shows you just how much I've improved. This month it works out to an average of 6.98km each day or 52 minutes each day. So now I feel super proud having beat my highest number ever! I doubt I'll be beating it again any time soon since I'm running a half marathon in September and will have to do rest days before and after and all that fun stuff.

My weight loss this month wasn't as good as I had hoped but that's okay. I still managed to drop 2.4lbs and now only have 6.2lbs left to go which is great. It's so exciting I want to jump for joy and say stupid things like it's crazy awesome that I've rocked this. Okay so time for a more mature response now.

I feel really proud of this month, and even better I was telling my husband the other night that I had to go run because I needed to run an average of 7km to hit my goal and he couldn't believe how far I've come. He often laughs about how he never thought in a million years that he would have to force me to take days off of running or see me run 8km several nights in a row. 5km used to be a little standard run and now it's 8km. So when I only have an hour to run I can hit 8km typically where before it would take me almost 50 minutes just to get 5! Things have changed so much this past year it's hard to believe. I can't wait to see what comes in the rest of the year.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Kicking butt.

Lillian enjoying her day at the Gardens.
So giving the pup up today went better than I thought. Seeing those happy three little kids she was going home with made me feel at peace that she would be in good hands. They were really excited to play with her and she jumped right into the van and was ready to go. She's going for the week trial and if they are good with her and she likes them it will become her new home.  After she left we moved a few of the couches out a bit and she went crazy exploring the new found area.

Now I'm just shy of kicking my running goal's butt! I've ran 209.16km and my highest month ever was 212 so I'm so close to rocking it. Tomorrow I'm going to do it and feel amazing. So I will keep thinking about this to keep me going while I feel sad that my puppy had to go away.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

The good, the bad and the sad.

     Okay, so the good is I beat my 200km goal for this month. Yippy, and I'm well on my way to beating my previous highest monthly goal ever. Woot. We also had a nice time with my in-laws at the Hamilton Royal Botanical Garden on Saturday for my father-in-law's birthday. Lillian loved all the plants and was very well behaved which made me so happy. And she had a blast visiting her grandpa and great-grandma.
Lillian playing in her new Mega Blocks wagon.
     The bad, is I didn't hit my weight loss goal. But whatever, the last 10lbs are always the hardest and they are coming off just slowly. The fact that they are coming off is actually a good so that's nice. Only 6.2lbs left to get to my goal.
Lillian and I at the Rock Garden at the Royal Botanical Garden.
     And finally the sad. Tomorrow is the day that a family is coming to check out my pooch and while I know that is going to make her happy (eventually) and make things easier for me it really is bumming me out.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

A good week.

Lillian with her friend Emma.
So tonight I managed to run a lovely little 10km run. Tomorrow I plan to do 15km, but we'll see how that goes. I've almost finished my baby quilt for my friend which is pretty cool since I just started it a few days ago. Though now I got another quilt that I would rather give them so if I can finish the second one in time I'll let my friend pick. One is letters of the alphabet, and the other is pirates. Her baby is nicknamed the ninja baby so I think pirates would be super cute.

Everything here is going well and my eating have been great the last few days. I'm looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow and hope that I lose the cheese weight and then some more too. It's my father-in-laws birthday this weekend so we're going to the Royal Botanical Gardens and out for lunch to the mandarin. I love the mandarin and will make sure to behave myself. It's pretty easy when you have to feed a baby because you end up eating so very very slowly! Wait till tomorrow when I can post a wicked awesome loss (I hope).

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Day of rest and a big choice.

So after running for the last 6 days I declared today my day of rest and it felt great. I sat around lazily quilting and playing with my baby. It was a really great day. Tomorrow will be a nice run in the am during Lillian's morning nap and then kickboxing in the evening. I'm seriously looking forward to it. Kickboxing is a nice change of pace, though there were only 4 people in class on Monday so I hope that there are more tomorrow.

So now I have made another big decision. My two girlfriends who were going to run the September race with me have backed out. One of them can't go because her husband has to go to a stag party and she has to be home with the dog and baby. The other one hurt her back and doesn't know if she'll be able to complete the run. So now if I want to run the race I'll be doing it solo which kinda sucks but I think I may still do it. I've been training for weeks and feel that I am ready but still feel sad that I'll be doing it alone. My hubby offered to come with me the day of so him and my baby will be waiting for me at the finish line and that is what I should focus on. So here's to training for a great run in less than a month!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Updates.

Okay so I peeked today at my scale, and guess what? Sarah was right and the cheese weight is GONE! Yippee! Plus a little extra weight went along to keep it company which is very nice. I also managed to run 5km today and go to kickboxing! Woot woot! Today was defiantly my day. I'm feeling really good, especially since my extra little weight is gone. It's nice to be getting back on track again. My other big thing is I am starting to work on my first baby quilt too which I haven't done since before my daughter came into my life so it's really relaxing and something that I love doing. I figured that if I only have a month and a week before I go back to the office I should try to make the most of my leftover time.

So here's to having a blast with my girlfriends and their perfect little babies, and enjoying my fun crafting and running my tushie off! All around it's been a really happy day.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Working on my Fitness.

It's been a while since I really posted so this will be a long one. If you aren't sitting down you may want to.

So yesterday I failed at trying to run. I just wasn't feeling it and after 2.25km I stopped and went to bed. It was just one of those days. Too much shopping with my mom apparently. Oh well life goes on. Today I managed a nice 10km run to make up for it. I'm on par to hit my monthly goal of beating my all time monthly high for km run. Right now I'm at 165.27km in 22 days (7.5km/day) and I needed to have run 151.2km (6.87km/day) to hit my goal of 213 which just beats my top number. So I'm already 14km ahead of my goal so I can just run 6.9km a day for the rest of the month each day and rock this no problem. Good thing I have to do an 18-21km run this week for my half-marathon so I know I can handle all this.

On the medical front I saw my doctor again and he said my hypothyroid is actually very common considering I just had a baby. For a lot of new moms the thyroid goes into hyper-drive when the baby is born and burns itself out after 3-4 months and then switches into a sort of sleep mode to compensate. Sadly, the hypothyroid (what I can have now) can last anywhere from 9-12 months! So we agreed to re-test me after Lillian's first level and if things are not getting better on their own by then we'll give them a little push.

I got some new running gear recently. I picked up my Fiona running bra (LOVE IT) in a smaller size, and a new pair of tank tops to go with my running clothes I got at Easter. They still had some leftover tops so my mom got me a small (OMFG) for running at home, and a medium to wear to kickboxing. The medium is the same colour as my pants, so I have a full purple set, but the small one is pink and I have black and blue pants but at home, who cares. I just needed them to fit right.

I am officially a shop-a-holic now. I went shopping AGAIN with my mom this weekend and picked up another pair of work pants, two long sleeved shirts and three short sleeved shirts for work, a pair of high heels, AND a pair of high heel BOOTS! I have never been able to buy boots because my calves were always too big and now they fit! I almost cried. Seriously, I was SO excited. I also got socks but they aren't exciting. I also realized that I need to buy some flats for home use because I only have one pair of cute flat slip ons and they are my work (I have to run up and down the stairs today) shoes so when I go back to work they will again, live under my desk and never leave the office. So I get to go do some more shoe shopping. My mother joked that after this weekend my husband will never let her come up again! Maybe he shouldn't go camping and leave me alone with our credit cards for a while, but I think it's all good.

I also picked up some crafting things because I want to quilt some pillows for Lillian's future big girl room and it will take me some time so I figured I should start now. I also got a baby quilt pattern for a good friend of mine who's expecting and I need to get my butt in gear and finish it before I go back to work, otherwise it will never get done. I've now got 39 days left on maternity leave and I'm feeling pretty sad about that but I know Steve is looking forward to being a stay about home dad for a few months, and I'm starting to plan when in 2011 we should start trying for baby number two so that gives me lots to look forward to when I'm at work.

Here is Lillian trying to eat the vegetables out of my garden. Silly baby don't chew on the hot pepper!
Hope you're all doing well! Sorry I've been a bit MIA lately. With the thyroid making me moody I choose not to write instead of ranting about everything and everyone, and then with having to find my dog a new home (she's still here but I've got several leads on good homes for her - more than I ever thought which is why it's taking so long) and then my mom visiting, and tomorrow I'm hosting a play date, it's a miracle I've even been able to run! So have a great night and don't worry I'll be writing more this week! Promise!

Friday, August 20, 2010

Scared for WI tomorrow.

I didn't weigh in today. Why? I forgot and part of me was probably a little scared. My mom is up and we're having an absolute blast. Thursday, we went out for lunch, had a late dinner, and chatted over a late night cheese and cracker plate with wine. So I am expecting the number to go up tomorrow. Wanna know a secret? My scale has not gone up in all of 2010, so I'm a bit bummed at the idea of it going up but it was so worth it. The memory of chatting with my mom will be around for a LONG time. Much longer than the weight from the cheese and wine, plus I don't really drink much and I love cheese and have missed it a lot lately so life will go on.

I also got some awesome new clothes today, again, and my new running bra is FINALLY at the store so I can pick it up tomorrow. So all around life it good. Will post about the WI tomorrow and hope everyone has a great night.

Results are in: 1.2lbs gain. :) So worth it!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

A Hard Choice.

So today I made a hard choice. I've decided to give my dog away. She's great and so loving but the problem is that my baby is crawling and my dog thinks Lillian is a puppy. When Lillian crawls up to Pica to play they are okay for the first minute, and then when Lillian wants to leave and go elsewhere Pica uses her paw to hold Lilly down and pull her back which causes Lilly to pull away harder and fall on her face. In the last 24 hours my baby has smacked her head THREE times.  I can't handle the stress and fear that comes up when these two play together and since they can't be separated all the time I have made the hard choice to give my dog to a family who has the time to give her the attention she deserves. I also know that the amount of time I have will only get less and less when I go back to work, and then my husband goes back in January. My best friend/Lillian's Godmother is looking to see if she can take her but if not I'll find her a nice home with kids to play with.

So right now I am a bit sad but know that the choice I've made is for the best.

Monday, August 16, 2010

I've got a feeling that this week's gonna be a good week!

Had my fun day with my girlfriend today and we had a BLAST! Lillian was great the whole time and just as we hit the restaurant for lunch she passed out so I got to eat a hot meal and have adult conversations while she slept. Once we got home she was wide awake and ready for her lunch. On top of that we had a blast window shopping, and a little bit of real shopping too, (hello new earings to go with my oversized new belt) and the weather was perfect. A little warm with a nice breeze so I got to rock one of my cute new outfits, feel like a million bucks and spend major quality time with my pal. I don't think I could ever ask for more.

But there is more! Oh yes there is more! My mother is coming to visit on Wednesday and my step-father on Saturday, while my hubby is going camping this weekend. That means I have a few days with my mother just us girls, and then a weekend to have fun with my parents and Lillian while Steve gets away from it all for a bit. I'm so excited. I'm already planning a lunch out with my mom on Thursday and Saturday and an adventure with my baby and all the running and cleaning I'm going to do! If you can't tell, today is NOT a moody day for me. OMG! It's going to be awesome! Seriously this week is going to feel like a vacation for me! You know you're a mom when you get excited about cleaning while someone else watches your baby! :)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Slow and Steady does NOT win the race!

At least not in running. Today my husband and I hit the horror hill run to get him some training on the hill route and it SUCKED so bad. He has never run it before so I understand that we had to go a bit slow, I actually now know what my friend Cecilia must feel like when she runs with me. You enjoy the ease of the run without the pressure of having to boot it all the time. So anyway we did the route, it took the longest it ever has, but the weather was not friendly. We left at 9:15am to start and it was 94% humidity and already felt like 32 degrees out so that was not nice heat wise but the company more than made up for it.
Lillian looking evil at the wedding service.

Tomorrow I'm going to have a wonderful day with my best friend and my baby. We're going to St.Jacobs and stroll around the town and have a nice lunch together. We should have a lot of fun strolling around and looking through the stores, until Lillian has had enough. At least once she does, we only live about 10 minutes away so we'll be home fast.

I am also rocking this running thing this month. I am ahead by 8.56km already and feeling great. Tomorrow I'm hoping to have a 5km run to go with my kickboxing class.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Success and a much needed rest!

So I weighed in today and SUCCESS! I am 149.2lbs which means I am finally in the 140s and leaving me with 7.8lbs to go until my major goal. I can't believe how close I am to hitting my goal. My first goal was actually 145 (the random number I pulled out of my head that I remembered from high school - it was the weight I was before I got my hips and boobs), then I made my goal 144 (a total loss of 25% of my body weight) and then I made it 142 (having me lose 50 lbs which is a lot easier for people to visualize than 25% of me). So now I have 7.8lbs left to go and honestly it is crazy for me to realize how little I actually weigh. I had a baby shower at my office this week (the one I was hosting for a good friend who happens to work with me) and a lot of the faculty members who I haven't seen in a while were there and they were SHOCKED by how much weight I'd lost, including my supervisor who I've kept missing since February. She had a baby boy in September and we just kept missing each other. She was back to her skinny old self in no time but I think she's just built that way. It felt great having all my colleagues see me and have such nice things to say about me, and a lot of them are runners (or former runners) and I got some great tips for my hill training.

Lillian making her dad's favourite face and me copying her.
Today I had planned to do a nice run but after getting some blood work done (remember I had to get some more for my thyroid to see if it is fixing itself or if it's still messed up) I didn't know if it was a good idea. I saw signs everywhere at the lab saying No Exercise and No Heavy Lifting for 24 hours after you have blood taken. At first I laughed it off, but my legs are a bit hollow from kickboxing on Wednesday and Steve and I plan to do the hill run on the weekend together, and I have run for 5 days in a row so I figured a day of rest was called for. And so I let lose my crazy running lady (for one day) and played with my I don't want to nap baby (40 minutes total today instead of her usual 4 hours) and we shared a bowl of Haagen dasz. I love my Haagen Dasz and since my weight watchers points reset today I figured it was worth using some of them to enjoy a nice half cup of ice cream and it was SO worth it. Yum! :)

So my weekend is going to be full of cleaning, helping my best friend put up some art work, going for a long 2+ hour hill run with my hubby while said best friend baby sits my monkey and whatever else we feel like doing. I'm glad I decided to stay home this weekend instead of driving for hours to visit my folks. I really needed a nice quiet weekend.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Weight in.

I weigh in tomorrow and I am nervous. I've been dropping really slowly the last two weeks and I want to be in the 140's so badly! I'll let you know how it goes but here's hoping my 150.4lbs lets me FINALLY into the next decade.

Hope everyone is doing well. We have a meteor shower here tonight so the hubby and I laid in the grass and watched it. Very cool!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Horror Hill Run.

So I got my hill run training run in today and it was pretty brutal considering how hot it was outside when we did it and I feel like a million bucks. My legs are sore but I'm still looking forward to my kickboxing tomorrow evening anyway. Though I am a little bit nervous for the baby shower that I am throwing for my coworker at my office. We ordered a cake and I baked brownies and carrot cake. At least I know the nutritional information for the stuff I made but it's pretty yummy and bad for you so that worries me that I may overindulge and pay for it on Friday. Normally it's not such a big deal but since we had that wedding on Saturday I really don't have any wiggle run left this week. But I will have to pack a nice healthy lunch (since it's being held over the lunch hour) for both me and Lillian and try to avoid eating any of the snacks. Maybe if I bring a carrot cake muffin I can eat that and track it and not worry about getting the other stuff since I will have a treat like everyone else just not as high in calories.

So wish me luck and strength and I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Silly feeling Off.

Okay so it's pretty crazy but I still feel pretty "off" and the biggest symptom is moodiness. My poor husband. I wasn't this moody when I was pregnant, or during my time of the month, or anything. It's crazy. I feel so bad because my temper snaps in like two minutes and the poor guy is always the prime target for my crankiness.  It makes me feel bad. I try really hard to control my temper but lately it keeps flaring up when I don't want it to. I wish I was calmer and more peaceful. Some days I feel like a horrible wife because I get cranky at my hubby and don't appreciate everything he does for me. He is such a wonderful and kind man and lately I am being such a major b#*@h. I have been trying to make it up to him by cooking for him and helping him keep his weight watchers on point. Maybe my thyroid will fix itself in the next while.

Us at my friend's wedding this weekend.
On a happier note my running is going really well. I keep pushing it and am super excited about my hill training run with my friend tomorrow. My half-marathon is still up in the air for September because one of my friend's back is bothering her and she doesn't know if she can do the 21km run in the morning. It takes her hours to loosen up enough that she can run. I've talked it over with Steve and I'm pretty sure that even if she can't do it (and I was wondering if my friends would actually bother to go through with it) we may still go and make a weekend out of it for the family. I really want to do this race to prove something to myself, since I was so sick when I ran the first race. I would just LOVE to have my mommy girlfriends run with me but I don't know if they will. My mom said that they probably don't take running as seriously as I do and since they have so much family in the surrounding areas they have more family obligations than I do which makes it harder. I understand that but we have family obligations too. I just take it very seriously and want to be healthy for my baby. She is my top priority and I keep reminding myself of that. I lose a lot of me time but it's worth it to know I'll be healthy for her in the long run.

The photo on the left is of the three of us at my good friend from universities wedding. It was this Saturday and we all looked pretty good I must say, and Lillian had a blast.