Monday, March 29, 2010
Photos and Feelings!!
I think everyone who wants to lose weight wonders how other people see them. I felt very hesitant about starting to run because I was nervous about what people would think of me when they saw me running. The funny thing is I don't worry about men as much as women. I was a big tom boy in school and I find there are three types of men (boob, legs and butt) and I have nice junk in my trunk and have always been a chesty girl so I don't worry what they think of me, it's the other running women. I don't run very fast because I have little legs and am pushing a stroller but I still worry what others think of me when I run.
When I first started running I was convinced every person who ran past me thought of me as a fat cow and secretly laughed at me for bothering. When I see larger people working out I always think good for you, keep up the great work, but somehow I never think others see me that way. Even now, I'm lighter than I have been with my husband I see feel uncomfortable running some days. I push my stroller and hope that people assume my extra weight is all baby weight, even though I'm already a few pounds under my pre-baby weight, 2.2lbs to be exact. I know I look good, and this is all about becoming healthy not to look good but I can't help feeling this way some days. I'm starting to worry a bit if I will ever be okay with how I look. If I will ever see the skinny girl in the mirror.
I thought that writing this blog might help me feel better when I go out to run tomorrow, and on April 1st I'll be posting a before and after photo of my last three months of work to show off what my running has done. On a funny note, there were two bulls on the dirt hill today and that made me laugh.