Okay, so I am now 14.5 weeks along, and have been trying to run at least 5km once a week and it is so hard. I could only go for 15 minutes (1 mile) today before I just got too tired to keep going. Today is my day off, meaning hubby and the monkey are visiting his dad, so I should be resting for how tired I am but instead I am cleaning and trying to run and trying not to each 10,000 calories. I feel like a failure right now. I said I would keep running, and not let this pregnancy stop me, but I am so tired this pregnancy and still feel sick all the time. It wasn't this hard with Lillian but I didn't have a Lillian to chase after either.
So now I just feel like a failure and a loser and wish that I was stronger than I am. I'll try to run again later tonight but I don't know how that will go. Maybe I'll feel better in a little while, or a few days. It has been an emotional week with my Opa and everything. Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself and need to cut myself some slack.