Monday, May 30, 2011

Feeling nervous.

I see my OB tomorrow and hit 39 weeks on Wednesday. I'm really hoping that something is happening. I don't think I can handle going 10 days over like I did with Lillian. Seriously I think I'll lose my mind. Today I managed to get 6 (7 once my hubby drags my hospital bag to the garage) of my 25 things crossed off my list so that's not too shabby for my first day of birth leave. I hope that I'll get some of my left over work (from my work) done tomorrow since my toddler is in daycare from 9:30 to 4:30pm so that will give me loads of time to get things done, after I see my OB that is.

Wish me luck. I'm ready to have this baby already!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Officially HUGE!!

Okay, so I'm now 38 weeks and 3 days along and I'm seriously huge, but in a good way. My evil OB has told me he doubts I'll go into labour before my due date but that I am welcome to prove him wrong. I hope that I go pretty soon so I can meet this little miracle child of ours and stop feeling fat! Tomorrow is my hubby's birthday so I'm going to make him breakfast, we'll order pizza for lunch, go birthday present shopping (he's getting a wicked new flash for his camera from all of us) and in place of cake we'll have blizzards! So all around a pretty great day. Let's just hope that Lillian cooperates and behaves herself so her daddy can have a nice day.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Radom thoughts.

Cutie patutie on a seesaw.
Okay, so I've had a lot on my mind lately. I'm now 37 weeks and 5 days along and honestly I'm getting pretty sore. It's come to the point where I find myself with lower back pain most of the time and the cramps in my legs are getting pretty bad. This weekend there were only two or three positions I could sit in for long periods without being in too much pain.

I had a talk with my hubby today and we were looking at the pre-pregnancy photos from last summer, and he said compared to what I look like now I almost look too thin then. He's only saying that because he's so used to the pregnant me that the super skinny me is odd to him. Silly boy. I spend so much time worrying about how I'll manage to lose my baby weight, that I haven't even had time to worry about labour or delivery. Shows you where my priorities are.

So now I'm down to 4 days of work left, and am nervous about how I'll manage to finish everything up, but at least I'm further along than I was another week ago so that is a good thing. I'll let you know how this week goes and hopefully we'll have news of a new baby to report sooner rather than later.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Countdown.

September 28th, 2010 - 8 days - unknown
January 19th, 2011 - 22 weeks

May 19th, 2011 - 37 weeks, 1 day
Okay I'm down to 20 days till my due date and only 5 days of work left. I have been feeling huge and thought it would help to remind myself how great I looked before I got pregnant. So now that I am the size of a garden shed, I can keep counting down to the day that I am the size of a house, which should be in about 2 weeks.

I'm feeling a little bummed right now. I have a girl friend who wants to get pregnant so badly and she's so bummed that it's taking so long for her, and I'm so tired and frankly a little sick of being pregnant and I feel guilty that it happened so easily for me, much to both our and my doctor's surprise, and I would have been fine waiting. I know everything happens for a reason and in good time, but I wish that I had more I could say to my girl friend to make her feel better. Anyone have anything I can say to my girlfriend? I just wish I could say something more comforting than what I've been saying.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Feeling frustrated

Do you ever feel like no matter how much you do or give, people never seem to think it's enough? I'm feeling that way at work right now. I'm down to 10 work days before my maternity leave (1 is a holiday and 1 a vacation day), though it's really only 8 and everytime I cross something off my To Do List someone else comes in and I end up adding 2 or 3 more. It's very frustrating and I don't like it. I have brought work home twice now on the weekends, and was very sick this week so I haven't been my usual speed, but it was also a really stressful week and I'm just thankful I made it through. But for example, on Tuesday I emailed some people about my co-advisor being absent on Thursday and Monday (tomorrow) and reminded them that I was unavailable Wednesday and had a vacation day Thursday. I come back Friday and have panicked voice mails from them about how all these students were looking for an advisor and no one was there. Hello! I everyone a reminder email on Tuesday, because I'm supposed to let them know if we aren't available. I don't appreciate being made to feel bad when I did everything I'm supposed to. Now tomorrow, I have to package some important things, see my OB, attend a 3 hour meeting and another coworker expects me to cover the advising hours my coadvisor usually does on Mondays because we weren't available as much as expected last week. Um, NO! I spent 5 hours this weekend doing work because it was due at 9am on Monday, I'm canceling my vacation day this week because I'm so stressed about getting work done (when my OB wants me to be relaxing and taking it easy not stressing as badly as I am) and I have to leave by 2:30pm to pick my daughter up form daycare. Forgive my language but what the hell! I haven't even eaten lunch anywhere but my desk for the last two weeks.

I completely lost it this weekend because of all this, and my poor husband had to pick up all the pieces and try to calm me down. I'm so stressed about getting everything done, and I know it won't happen and to me that just isn't acceptable. But I have decided I am just going to say NO to all new requests I get, and I started with the coworker who expects me to advise tomorrow. I sent an email explaining how busy I am and how I find it unfair that I am expected to cover everything all the time. I feel better having done that but am a bit worried about what my blood pressure will be tomorrow at my OB. Oh well, wish me luck!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Slacking a bit.

Okay so my blog has been lacking for the last bit, but it was my first week of term which is CRAZY for me, and I'm down to only 14 work days left until my maternity leave. And 14 is the maximum, since 1 day is a public holiday, and 2 are vacation days, which actually only leaves me with 11 and a whole bunch of work to get done. Eeeeck! So now my baby is visiting with her Oma for the week so I can get my work all done and get ready to start my maternity leave without worrying about things at the office.

First full day at Oma's and loving the make-shift sand box they set up.
Other than having a ton to do things have been well. My husband made my mother's day very special. My mom came down in order to take the baby back with her, and we went yard saling on Saturday and for only $30 got a whole bunch of clothes for our daughter and I am so excited about them. Wooden peg puzzles, duplos, a giant bag of crayons for $1! We couldn't have done better! Then on Sunday my hubby made breakfast for me, my mom and our baby. It was amazing and so yummy (eggs benedict -my favourite). I think I should let him make breakfast more often! :) After that we went to a large, local park and had a lot of fun with the baby. She played to the point of being exausted and then we headed home, fed her and let me mom take her.

So now I'm working on getting my work done on time, all while trying not to miss our baby too much. Hope all the mommy's who read this blog had a wonderful mother's day.