I just wish I had more patience and could be the mother I wish I was. I have so many insecurities about my skills as a mother and about when and how I can control my temper and now he's made me feel so much worse. I am working hard to get my running in everyday to help offset my temper and make me more patient and happy but I just want to curl up into a sad little ball right now. I know I will get over this, and I know my husband and I will be fine (we'll be together forever and can make it through anything) but I just feel so judged by him right now that I've avoided touching him for the past few days and don't really want him touching me, and that makes it worse because I start to feel lonely. Hopefully I'll suck it up and get over this soon so I can get on with my busy day to day life. Wish me luck.
|Here are my precious girls that I wish I could be a better mother to.|