Saturday, December 31, 2011

December Summary

So I have to say this is my least favourite summary EVER! December was a bit of a bust for me weight less wise.

I started the month at 171.8lbs and ended it at 171.4lbs which means I only lost 0.4lbs this whole month. I have to say with all honestly that I am bummed by this and pretty much feel like this whole month was a waste of time! I know that I had my birthday this month, we celebrated 3 Christmas', my step-father's birthday, my step-mother's birthday, and my work Christmas party. So I should be thankful that I lost this month at all but I feel as if I failed myself regarding my weight loss journey. I know I put too much pressure on myself to lose it as fast as I did with Lillian but I think I'm at a plateau and I am not even half way through the weight loss journey so I should not be hitting one yet. I just hope that if I am in a plateau that my bootcamp in January will knock this plateau on it's butt.

My running was a lot better this month than my weight loss. I managed to run a total of 143.74 km in 17 hours and 21 minutes, which puts this month as the second most kms run since I had Katrina. So maybe I worked out too much and that's why I didn't lose more weight. I think we should go with that theory. The breakdown of the runs are 4.63 km or 33:35 per day! And I managed to rock my speed up to 8.28 km/hr this month.

So I am going to take this month as a positive even if my losses were sad since my runs were so awesome.

Friday, December 30, 2011

Friday Favourites - 2011 memories!

Okay, so everyone has been making lists of what happened in 2011 so I figured I'd jump on the band wagon. So below is a list of my favourite memories and moments of 2011!

Mom brings Ghzala and Lilly to meet Katrina.
1- Birth of Katrina
Labour is not easy, and neither was this pregnancy but holding her in my arms after two days labouring was worth it. I would do it all over again and every day she looks at me and smiles and snuggles into me I just melt. She is such a blessing to me and I would give up everything for her in a hearbeat.

2- Lillian
Everyday Lillian does something to make me smile and while I can't name a specific memory that is my favourite I have to put her on my list because she is the light of my life. I love being blessed with such a kind little girl, who keeps me on my toes but at the same time reminds me how beautiful and pure life is.

Race completed.
3- Horror Hill Run
I couldn't be prouder of my running than when I not only beat my 2011 Horror Hill Run time, but also broke 2 hours which I really wanted to do!

4- 5 years with Steve
Steve and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary, and I was able to go out for dinner solo with my husband. We had a lovely celebration and I feel so blessed to have such a kind man in my life who supports me and puts up with my cranky trousers when they come out.

My Oma meets Katrina.
5- Oma's visit
She didn't get to stay as long as I would have liked but I must say seeing my Oma hold my girls made me so happy.

Baby Sleeper by Alice.
6- New love of sewing
I always enjoyed knitting, but this year I learned that I inherited my mother's mother's skill and passion for sewing. She was a seamstress and I have found a new way to connect to her which is a real blessing, since she has altzeimers and so no longer knows who I am. But I have some of her sewing supplies and she will always be with me thanks to that.

7- Grayson & Alec
My girlfriend and my sister both had scarey pregnancies. My nephew was born a few days shy of 32 weeks, after my sister was in the hospital on bed rest for 8 or 9 days after her water broke. My girlfriend had hemmorrhaging early on but delivered a healthy baby at term. So I am so happy and grateful that in both cases the boys and moms are healthy!

8- Running while pregnant
I didn't know if I could do it, but I not only managed to run while pregnant with Katrina, but I did it until 32 weeks along. I'm grateful my doctor let me do it and that it helped me from gaining even more weight than I did.

9- G's engagement
I have a good friend, who's older than me by 15 years, and she's been through SO much in her life that I always wanted her to find love and just be happy, and this year she did. I'm really sad that she's moving to a new town (because I am sooooo going to miss her) but honestly overjoyed that she has found love, like I knew she would, and that she is happy, because she deserves it more than most people.

One bad, pregnant, running, mama!
10- Finding Run Like a Mother
There were days that I felt alone trying to run while pregnant and with a baby, but this book really made me feel as if I am not alone. The book made me feel like part of a class of women who not only work and take care of their families but also find the time to take care of themselves (and keep their sanity) which can be so hard for many women and moms to manage.

So there you have it. 10 of my favourite memories of 2011! I hope you all have had a wonderful year and can easily come up with your own list! What are your top 10 memories for the year?

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Thinning Thursday.

Quickie post!

Down 0.8lbs this week, despite my birthday dinner, Christmas eve and Christmas day with the extended family. I'm back to 171.4 which I've been before this month. I'm still playing with my points but I think I may have figured out the right amount for me. I mean I ate all my daily's, my weeklies and all but 3 of my activity points, but I used most of them over two days early in the week so I'm doing that again this week.

Wish me luck. This month on the whole, has been a bit of a bust weight loss wise but losing over Christmas and my birthday is a good thing in my book.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Holiday Silliness!

I thought I'd keep the holiday theme going this week since I'm working on a few serious blog ideas in my head, but I'll save those for next week. So in the mean time here are some the silly things that have happened to us this week...

December 26th 
  • We start potty training Lillian and now she's running around in a shirt, Dora slippers and no pants. Our house is usually 19 degrees but is so hot now to keep her warm that Steve and I are in summer clothes! I feel like a pina colada!
December 27th
  • Our parrot Einstein, screams Eureka for the first time. Apparently I've been watching too many of the DVDs.
December 28th - till noon
  • Pink blueberry pancakes for breakfast, mixed by the pantsless princess. 
  • I run in proclaiming that I'm selfish because I shoveled the whole driveway of 3 inches of snow. No calorie burning for my husband! Muhahahaha!
  • Katrina needed burping so Lillian decided to take over and slapped my hand away saying "No". She then proceed to burp her sister and actually succeed in getting a huge one out!
Well that's all I can think of for now. Hope at least one made you smile.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Merry Christmas - holiday summary part 2.

Lillian loves her train.
Our set up for her new train.
I am proud to say that I held back on the crazy shopping I wanted to do for our daughters but with three sets of grandparents, and several great-grandparents they were crazy spoiled! The biggest hit for Lillian was her new train set from Grandpa (my father-in-law) that we told him to get her. At the Church babysitting room she always plays with the train and we thought she'd like one of her own! As you can see she's already all over it. We put it all around in the basement since the original set up was a bit too tight for her small arms to reach in the middle.

My kitchen goodness!
I made out like a little bandit myself. I got some amazing cooking supplies from my mommy! I got a new cake decorating kit, a few packs of crazy cupcake wrappers, a new large frying pan (from Lagostina just like our pots), a wickedly awesome quality chef knife, and a lot of starbucks cards. I am one very happy little Alice. I can get a starbucks for free ever week for the REST of Winter.

Our awesome new collection.

I got the Sewing Bible. I'm very excited about it. I can't wait to start reading it. Then between all of us, we got a LOT of DVDs. The girls got Alice in Wonderland, Sword in the Stone, Meet the Robinsons, Kung Fu Panda (1&2), Wizard of Oz, Bedknobs and Broomsticks, and two multi-packs. Steve got the Red Dwarf series. I got Big Bang Theory (1&2), Glee (1&2), Eureka (1&2), Castle (1), and Dexter (1-5). We have been VERY spoiled but these should keep us all busy for quite some time. Steve and I love special features so we will have a lot of entertainment for a while. The girls are good too, since I wanted to start their Disney DVD collection and we really have now.

Lastly, I got a bit of money and used it to pick up a few things I wanted (such as a few of the DVD sets) but the biggie was the shoe Yak Tracks that will allow me to run on ice and not feel so nervous like I did on the 24th. I am all set to have some great runs this week!

My new grippies.
So now I'm just thankful that the holidays are over. We have a great time visiting family and it was nice to get to see everyone, but I'm very blessed to have Steve home until January 2nd so I am going to take advantage and get a lot of runs in, not to mention starting to potty train Lillian (no luck so far though) and enjoy a bit of quiet time at home with my family. I hope you all had a nice holiday too!
Santa Baby.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry Christmas - holiday summary part 1.

I hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas! We certainly did here. Our little girls were just spoiled silly, but I guess that's part of grandparents and that is what I'll be writing about tomorrow. Today we're focusing on the food and activity of the days.

We had a lovely dinner with my in-laws on the 23rd. We just brought a PC blue menu lasagna, salad and multi-grain bread that I made garlic bread. It was very yummy, and we knew the points value which is always a plus. Additionally we've decided to do a monthly meal with my husband's side of the family. I'm thinking third Sunday of the month since it hits father's day which Steve likes to spend with his dad. We hope that they'll come here 2/3 of the times since it's easier to get them here than pack up our girls, but I'm okay as long as I get to cook. They are picky eaters but I have learned to cook with what they like, so they love to eat my food.

My mom and stepfather came to our house on the 24th for dinner and stayed until the 25th. We celebrated my step-father's 60th birthday both days, since it was on the 25th. He got a dinner just for him on the 24th and breakfast on the 25th was made up of all his favourites.We had pork chops at dinner and four kinds of bacon at breakfast! I even made him two birthday cakes. I ate healthy at my own meals since I know the food and I made it all, I can make sure to eat appropriately. I even got to have a small slice of each birthday cake. The plan was to enjoy the food with my family and then go easy on the next day at the family's big meal. Sadly it didn't quite work out that way.

The afternoon of the 25th was the big family gathering of my husband's, mother's side of the family. We brought veggies and dip but we were the first people that, so we hung out in front of our veggies, and the cheese/cracker plate, and shrimp, and nuts and juice. I did eat more appetizers than I planned to but it was really yummy! For dinner I managed to control myself and only ate salad, turkey, beans and several homemade cheese and potato perogies with sour cream. I knew I would eat the perogies and I really enjoyed them. I hadn't planned to eat dessert but there were coconut nanimo bars and I couldn't resist. Everything tasted great and I was not stuffed so I think all in all that was okay.

Finally, on a positive note I did manage to get a great 12km outside run in on the 24th in the early afternoon. I had planned a 10k run so I went a little further and loved it. I aimed to keep the pace between 7:40 and 7:50 the whole run and the average pace was 7:45!! I only had 1km (other than warm up) that was over the pace goal (stupid HUGE hill) and two that were less than the pace goal (thank you downward side of stupid HUGE hill). I came home and felt like a million bucks, and on top of that I got to wear my awesome new winter running shirt. Sadly, the ice has shown up and that created a bit of a challenge as I jumped between ice patches and on and off the road.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Friday Favourites - crazy cravings

So this Friday favourites was inspired by my husband asking me a question about my last pregnancy. While pregnant with Lillian I craved fruit so badly that I ate a whole watermelon in one day, but with Katrina he never really saw me eat much fruit or many vegetables and wanted to know why I didn't eat better when I knew all the weigh I was gaining would need to be lost again afterwards.
Pre-pregnancy, or possibly a few days pregnant.

What he didn't realize or ever be able to understand is that for most of my pregnancy raw veggies made me feel sick to my stomach with serious gas issues, and cooked ones just made me feel nauseous. The worst of them all was peppers. I couldn't even smell them without getting heartburn. I also found that fruit didn't taste very good. With Lillian, my taste buds had changed so fruit tasted sweeter and I just wanted more and more of it. But with Katrina it almost tasted bitter, so that made it hard to eat a lot of fruit. Really the only food I could tolerate were carbs, dairy and protein.

39 weeks and the size of a house!
During the first half of my pregnancy I felt nauseous all the time. The only thing that actually helped was to eat. It sounds crazy but right after eating was the only time that I didn't feel gross. So I tended to eat often, though I couldn't eat much at a time. I just ate often and I mean that. Sadly that is where a lot of the weight came from. I became very stressed about the whole thing, and that made my stomach ache worse. Ultimately I wasn't over eating because I was pregnant but rather I was eating to survive the pregnancy.

To really did try and avoid all this weight gain by running for part of my pregnancy, but the first trimester I was too tired and so I could only run from around 15 weeks to 32. Though I'm proud of myself for running as long as I did. In the end I love my little baby and would happily do it all over again if I had to. I'd even do it a hundred times if I had to. She's the apple of my eye, both her and Lillian make me the happiest mom alive.
Worth every ounce I gained!
So to all the pregnant ladies out there and all the moms trying to drop the weight, I feel your pain and you are not alone! But at least I didn't gain the +80lbs Haley did! I'll always have that!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Thinning Thursday.

First of all. Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to Alice, happy birthday to me! Today is my 28th birthday and I am happy to be me today. I get to go out for lunch and dinner today and will enjoy myself a fancy, nice latte.

My girls ready for an outside run!
In other news today is thinning Thursday and my weigh in results were not was I was hoping for. I was up this morning. I keep bouncing around this 1 lbs and honestly I'm getting rather pissed about it. I'm eating right, working out and it isn't doing anything. Well I guess I need to just try harder. I started having problems after I reduced my points because Katrina is now onto solid foods too, and thought maybe I wasn't eating enough. So this week I ate some more points and such, but that really didn't help (as you can tell from my gain). So I may have to drop my points back again to get things rolling. I'm just sad because at this rate I won't be anywhere near the weight I was when I went back to work after Lillian, which means none of my work clothes are going to fit me. Not really a fun way to start my birthday, but I guess that's life.

UPDATE: I've decided not to feel bad and have had this change of attitude.

I will not think of how fat I feel I look, but rather enjoy the day with my BRF and husband.
I will not think of how much further I have to go, but focus on how far I've come.
I will not be depressed about what I don't have but focus on the miracle we created and how blessed I am to have her.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Motivation part 2

Me with my peanut.
I remembered this on my treadmill this afternoon today. I also am motivated by goals. I love running and I even though I'm not so great at them, I like races. I have found that training for a specific race, whether it be distance, hills, speed, etc..., really helps to keep me going with my runs. Sure I could skip this particular run but how would that effect my race in so often. Next year I am planning to run 8 races, and I've already registered for 6 of them! The only ones missing are the full and half marathons. So now I'm preparing for my 8 mile race in February and my 5k and half marathon in April. I like having things to strive towards.

Me after my hard run.
I had two amazing runs this week. My tempo run on Monday was awesome and I couldn't be more happy with it. See how crazy red and sweaty it makes me?? And this was 10 minutes after running. Today I did a 10k speed hoping run. I managed to keep my average speed at 5.3mph with only my warm up and cool down being lower. I am working on building up my forever running pace to 5.3 instead of 5.2 and it seems to be going well. I did the whole run (besides the warm up and cool down) at a 2:1 ratio of 5.3 and 5.5 mph. I'm also really pleased that both of the runs from this week are the first times since Katrina was born that I ran at a sub 7 minute pace. So now I have lots to aim for both with training for races and for my speed on the treadmill and outside.

I can't wait for my races in 2012. I'm gonna ROCK them!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011


Lately I've been pondering a lot of what motivates me. Since I'm a busy mom of two beautiful girls a small lack in motivation can throw me off for days. For others a slight slip can sent them off course for weeks! So I've been thinking a lot about what keeps me going when I really don't want to while others seem to be slipping all around me.

Now, I should start by noting that I am not perfect and in no way am looking down on anyone who has slipped. I've admitted my mistakes on this blog many times (Halloween candy ring a bell?) and will continue to do so, but something inside of me just clicked after Lillian was born and often 'slacking' is just NOT an option. I truly hope that everyone one day experiences this. I come from Germany and my family just does things and gets it done. My mom and I unpacked our entire house in one weekend after we moved into our house. My hubby and some friends helped but I'll be honest, my mother and I did around 75% of it. We are just crazy hard working type people and won't accept defeat, which is how I try to look at my weight loss and my running.

Sure there are days where I'd much rather eat 2L of ice cream and watch TV ALL day, but I don't. There are days where I could eat a horse I'm so hungry but I don't. I do slip up too, and nibble too much, but something in me stops me 95% of the time, and I'm wondering if that makes me a freak or just determined. I've been down to 147lbs and want to get back there again. I know how hard I had to work to get there after Lillian and since it's round 2 I'll have to work even harder to do it again because it's less of a shock to my body this time around. I feel tired some days and I know running is what will help me get thin and be fit. Not running will result in me being unhealthy, and not being around for my daughters. When I need to push myself to run I think of my girls. I picture their faces, I picture my sister who died as a child, and think of all the loved ones I've lost and remember that I have to live for them. And I go for it.

I push myself to be here for my husband, my daughters, for the sister who didn't get the chance to grow up, for my mother-in-law who didn't get to meet her granddaughters, and my opa who didn't get to meet Katrina. I want to be healthy and happy so that I can be around to love them, and honour their memories. And to be honest, I want to be MILF.

Monday, December 19, 2011


So I was all excited to have a week with just my little peanut while my toddler stayed with my mother, but then the dreaded teething struck our house.

My toddler was a great teether, and we barely noticed that she was in that stage until a tooth suddenly appeared. We learned that was why she'd been so sensitive all the time. But Katrina is not such a good teether. She screams, and cries and is obviously in serious pain. I don't like to see her in SO MUCH pain. It's really hard to handle. I'm now thankful that I have my little one alone here because I can really focus on her, her pain and doing whatever I can to alleviate it. I wish I could have a fabulous week with Katrina and do fun things and go out, but instead I am at home with a baby in pain and just trying to make it bearable for her. I don't want to sound selfish but I really hope she's over this by my birthday (Thursday) so that I can have a nice dinner with her and Steve and not worry about her screaming in the middle of a crowded restaurant.
Flying, teething monster!
So now I've had 4 nights in a row with little sleep, and I know I shouldn't be complaining since my daughters typically sleep 11 hours at a stretch but it's hard to accommodate such a huge change so suddenly. But she's been screaming now for 5 days so I'm hoping that these little chompers will be out soon and she'll be happy baby again.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

101 Things update

So lately I've been one busy, busy little bee and have done a lot of things on my list! I've started or finished 5 things so far!

#1 & #91- I borrowed, a classic novel Emma from my friend and am now enjoying it, little by little in the evenings when I have a bit of time. I still can't believe that I have never read Emma before as I really enjoy Jane Austen but that's okay. I'm also back to reading Lillian Charlotte's Web. We'll see how long it takes me to get through the whole book with her. I'm guessing Easter.

I also finished my second book of the 50 (non-classic) books I want to read. Part of me feels I just don't read enough anymore, but with two little ones it is hard to find the time. But I've read the Time Travelers Wife and the 100 Mile Diet. Loved them!

#32- I filled out all my paperwork, paid my fee, took the photos, and mailed everything off. I even checked online to see that the paperwork has been received. I have officially applied for Canadian Citizenship. My babies and my husband are Canadian and soon I will be too. Now I have to worry about studying for the test and such, but after 25 years of living in Canada I figured it was about time.

#39- I have wanted to give blood for some time. I'm not sure how much need there is for B+ blood, but I figure every bit helps. I learned from my running BFF that you need a certain level of iron in your blood to be allowed to donate, and you have to wait 6 months after having a baby to donate, so my plans are to do it in January. But right now I'm starting by getting my iron and other hormone levels checked and will talk to him after the results get in to see if he's okay with me donating blood at this time.

#56- Who would have thought that I would learn to LOVE brussel sprouts! I used to hate them but I tried them again now, and they were super yummy. I'll be honest, I've only cooked them one way, with olive oil, salt and pepper in the oven, but I'm enjoying them a lot. I also have only been eating local, organically grown ones, so maybe that would have something to do with why I find them so good.

So that makes 11 things completed out of 101 which puts me over 10% of the way done. I'm also working on 23/101 which puts me at 23% working on with some good progress on them and I'm only 23.8% of the way through this so I'm well on my way!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

What exactly is a runner?

My husband and I had a funny conversation earlier this week. He was complementing my running, while rubbing my feet (I complained of sore patches on my feet from running). He said that being a runner would cause some calluses on my feet. I called him silly, and said I wasn't a runner. He replied that my 48km run last week makes me a runner, and I tried to disagree. So this got me thinking about exactly a runner is.

An internet search defines a runner as all of the following:

  1. A person, animal, or thing that runs, especially as a racer.
  2. A fugitive.
  3. One who carries messages or runs errands.
  4. One who serves as an agent or collector, as for a bank or brokerage house.
  5. One who solicits business, as for a hotel or store.
  6. A smuggler: a narcotics runner.
  7. One who operates or manages something: the runner of a series of gambling operations.
  8. A device in or on which something slides or moves, as:
  9. The blade of a skate.
  10. The supports on which a drawer slides.
  11. A long narrow carpet.
  12. A long narrow tablecloth.
  13. A roller towel.
So now I'm obviously not a #4 - 13, but the top three really sat with me. I am the primary errand runner of our house and I am the only one who ever checks our answering machine. In all honesty, there are days where I feel trapped like a fugitive. Days where I can't leave the house, or the babies are fussy, or where my husband is off doing what he wants to and I'm the one taking care of our children. I know he's busy and a lot of what he does he has to do so he can follow his career dreams in a few years (I can't complain since I love, Love, LOVE my job and coworkers) but that doesn't make me feel less trapped when he is gone on a business trip or has a lot of busy nights in one week.

But if you define a runner as something that runs, especially in races, then I guess I am a runner. I have run 6 races in all of 2010 and 2011, but for 2012 I'm registering for 8! In addition to that one of them is a half marathon and one is a full marathon.  That is a huge increase in race quantity and distance! But I still find it hard to see myself as a runner. Maybe it's because of how slowly I run when I run, or because I ... I don't know. I have no reason to not consider myself a runner, but I don't. I still think of myself as a fake sometimes. Like I am just in disguise and one day everyone will see me as the athletic fraud that I am. You can buy the fancy running shoes, jacket, and cool clothes, but if I'm running slower than average then I feel like I'm not a runner. So I use the term loosely when I write about myself on this blog but I don't feel like I'm a runner.

I'm not sure why but I feel as if I need to run a 10 minute mile to be an actual runner. That may be crazy or really arbitrary but that's how I feel.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Friday Favourites - body image

I'm one of those people who has struggled with my body image most of my life. I was fairly skinny in high school until grade 11 when I started to gain weight. Since then I was heavier for most of my life (except between Lillian and Katrina) and there were times where that was really hard on me. It has been hard on our marriage at times because when I feel bad about myself I'm super sensitive, I'm cranky and honestly at the risk of too much information, I don't want my husband to touch me.
Steve and I - January 2003
If I'm not happy with the way that I look, I don't believe any of the nice things Steve says about me. He tells me that I'm beautiful and gorgeous and sexy and I think he's either lying or on crack. Obviously he thinks I'm beautiful, I mean he started dating me when I was the heaviest I've been with him, and even when my weight fluctuated and stuck by me and didn't make fun of me when I was 217lbs while pregnant with Lillian (believe me I was a house!) too much. There was the "cow shirt" incident but that's a story for another blog!
Alice on October 2009 due date with Lillian.

In high school and university I always felt self cautious. I worried about my body looking like the other girls and what it should look like. I tried to diet and lose weight for years because I wanted to live up to a specific standard. But things changed after I met Steve. I wanted to become healthy for us. I wanted to be able to live a long and healthy life with him, and now to be there for our girls. So there is a big deal that I love now that I'm a mom and that is how much I've stopped caring about a lot of my flaws. I still don't like my back fat (it was gone before I got pregnant with Katrina so it will leave again) and my butt jiggles more than I would like it to, but a lot of issues are no longer there for me. I don't notice my stretch marks, which have been there since I gained weight in high school. I don't notice the sagging areas of my body. I don't care about my mommy tummy, since it's much smaller than my fat belly from years ago. When I look at my top half of the body I now smile and think how beautiful my body is.
August 2010 - post Lillian skinny minnie!
My body is amazing. My stomach is stretched but it held Lillian for 41.5 weeks and Katrina for 41. My chest is smaller and floppier but it fed Lillian until 11.5 months old and still feeds Katrina to this day. My hair is thinner, and my skin is drier but I have two beautiful girls who light up my world and are the greatest gifts I've ever had. It's amazing how much I've changed. I still have my off days or even weeks, but I used to worry about everything other people thought all the time, and now I couldn't care less. I have a few flaws just like every women in the world, but my husband loves me and I have an amazing body that brought us our little girls. In the end, as long as I'm healthy the jiggles are not important.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Serious Duh moment.

So yesterday I wrote about my plans to adjust to my toddler's lack of napping and today talking to my mom I realized that the option of running with my toddler playing in the basement would be my best option under one condition. I have to turn my treadmill around. How funny is it that I never thought of that? Right now it faces a shelf so I can watch my laptop (Netflix) while I run, but that leaves my back facing the play area. If I just turn it around, I'm facing Lillian's play area and can then put the laptop on a bar stool or dresser to watch my shows. I really have to laugh at myself sometimes. I was stressing out about how to manage all this and the whole time all I had to do is turn the silly machine around. Serious mom brain issues here!
Sisterly love - Katrina trying to flee.
Today I tested out the Lillian not sleeping since she actually left her bedroom during my run and I heard her so I brought her downstairs to the basement and finished my run. Lucky for me she climbed right into the arm chairs and watched Treehouse while I finished running. I only had 0.6 miles to go today, but tomorrow I will have to go further. I still think she'll be fine. There are loads of toys to play with in the basement. Luckily I only have to deal with it tomorrow and then I can have two weeks of only Katrina (while Lilly visits Oma) and my hubby being off work to get a lot of good runs in. I hope to do a lot of outside running so I get used to being out in the cold and then I should be able to get the girls out more.

Sisterly love - baby is not mobile so Lilly gets her.
I just can't believe that my baby doesn't want to nap anymore. She is SOOO cranky at night when she doesn't nap and honestly is a real pain, so I wish she would sleep. Today we even went out for an hour and a half walk and she ran around in her snow suit and boots but even that didn't make her sleep. So I'm not sure how to get her to sleep. I know kids outgrow their naps but everything I've read says they have to be happy all evening and NOT get super cranky at dinner, which she does. So she should still be sleeping but nothing I do seems to work. But that's life!

Any mom's out there have tips on how to get toddlers who don't want to nap to go to sleep?

Monday, December 12, 2011

Big changes happening.

So there are some big changes coming in the next few weeks. We are planning to potty train Lillian over the Christmas break. I don't know whether it will go well or not but it's coming. The other big issue is that Lillian is now refusing to nap. I knew this day would come but I was hoping it would take some more time. So now I have a few choices for my running.
  1. I can start getting up earlier than I already do every morning to get my run in before Steve leaves for work.
  2. I can start running outside with the girls as often as possible.
  3. I can start running at night after they go to bed or Steve gets home.
  4. I can try to teach Lillian to play downstairs while I run, but make sure she stays away from the treadmill. 
A combination of option 1, 2 and 3 are probably my best plan. I can try to get up early enough to get my butt on the treadmill and run. I am not a morning runner, so this will be a challenge for me, especially if I want to go far or do speed work early in the am. I may need a bit of time to wake up before my run, which isn't always possible. I can run outside with the girls, as we learned on Saturday but that is limited because it's, almost, Winter in Ontario and too cold or too windy means I can't safely take the girls out. Evenings are good because I've been up all day but some days by the time my husband gets home I am so exhausted that I don't even want to carry on a conversation with him, let alone hit the treadmill. I think I'm going to just get through the next few days. Then we'll be visiting family, and then I'll just have Katrina and then Steve is off for a week.

I think a good start would be to try getting up at 6am tomorrow and doing my speed run. If I can't do it, then I can try in the afternoon while Lillian has bedroom play time and Katrina naps, or wait until Steve gets home. But over the holidays I may have to teach myself to get up early enough that an AM run can happen. At least if I get my run out of the way in the morning I'll have more time to get things done around the house during the day.

Any morning runners out there who can give me some tips for getting a run, without eating before I run, and completing it before the kids wake up?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Record beat.

So a lot is going on in our house right now. I did my run in two parts today. I ran the first half before lunch. I did 3.8 miles and then the peanut woke up so I stopped. I did another 3.3 miles in the afternoon which means that I beat my old record of most km run in a week. I hit 48.19km which is awesome! Now I can admit that I ran 6 days this week (sorry Cecilia) but I am resting tomorrow and rested on Sunday last week, so I also ran 6/9 days which isn't that bad. And honestly last week was a rest week and next week we're visiting my family so we'll be busy and I may only get 3 or 4 runs in, so this week needed to be good. Now I'm really looking forward to my rest day tomorrow.

On the less exciting side of things, my step-sister is in the hospital right now. She's 32 weeks pregnant and her water broke on Friday. She hasn't gone into labour yet (luckily) so they were able to give her the shots that speed up the baby's lung development. From what they can tell my nephew (yuppers, it's a boy - first one on this side of the family too) is already 4lbs 2oz which is big for that stage of gestation, and she's staying in the hospital until he's born. The longest the doctor will let her go is the end of the month. We have a lot of December birthdays so there is a good chance that he could be born on another birthday. My step-mother and niece are the 18th, I'm the 22nd, another relative of my step-mother is the 24th, so lots of possibilities for him to share his special day. Right now all we want is for him to arrive safely and as healthy as possible, so he should stay in there as long as he can. My poor niece is all mad that her Christmas is ruined, but I told my sister to tell her  that she's not alone. I was born December 22nd at a time when you spent 5 days in the hospital after having a baby, so guess who ruined my sisters Christmas in 1983?

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Outside Run

Katrina likes her toes.
So in Canada the weather has gotten rather nippy. That tends to happen around this time of year. Today it was -6 degrees, feels like -14 when you take into account the 26km/hr winds with gusts of 37km/hr. Yet, we still managed to run outside. Yes, you read that right, we, as in me, the ladies and my husband. I'm so thankful that he pumped up the tires beforehand too. At first we felt really cold but then, after a little distance and running a direction that didn't have open fields around it we started to warm up and feel awesome. In the end we added a little bit at the end in order to move it over 6km and both girls were happy during the run. We played happy, kiddie music through the Ipod and Lillian was singing along with it. We used their wind cover and I am happy to know that both girls will rest nicely even if it's -14 degrees. My girls love being in the stroller, and I'm so thankful for that. I guess we started them early enough in it, and did it often enough that they enjoy it. So now I can run as I want to and even though Lillian isn't napping so well anymore I can start picking up my outside runs in order to get the miles in.

Then after our run my husband made a lovely stir fry for dinner. I have to brag since I cook 20/21 meals a week so I love that he made dinner and it was really yummy too. I don't really like stir fry but I tolerate it because of all the veggies that it contains and how good for me it is. But this one wasn't too bad. Tomorrow I will make dinner. We'll be enjoying a nice ham, with potatoes, beans, and carrots. Should be super yummy.

The other great thing is that I am getting really close to beating my most km run in a week record. I'm at 37km now (which is #6 on my most run list) so if I run 10km or more tomorrow I will have beat the record. Guess I'll have to watch two episodes of Dexter tomorrow to get it done! Otherwise tomorrow will be a nice day with the babies and my hubby. I really hope that I manage to get everyone up early enough to make it to Mass. Wish me luck.

Friday, December 9, 2011

Friday Favourites - race attire

There are a lot of opinions for what to wear and what not to wear when it comes to race attire. Some swear by a certain shirt or hat or shoes, while others think less is more. But there are a few common issues runner face. Whether or not to wear the race day shirt, the idea of standard extras (water belts, Ipod holders, etc..) and finally the funky attire for special races like costumes!

I like to wear the race t-shirt on the run while others believe that you need to test your race attire well in advance, especially if you're running a long distance like a half or full marathon. I think if you have skin issues, or need layers because of weather then you're better off going with a tried and true shirt. But if it's normal weather and you like the race shirt then why not go for it. I'm a fan of wearing the race shirt, but only if it is a technical shirt and comfortable feeling. I wore my horror hill shirt and my Waterloo half-marathon shirts to the races. But I have had the issue of wearing a new shirt out on a long training run and have some real chaffing, so now I am cautious about how far I wear something the first time. Typically I test things on the treadmill where I have the ability to rip it off and toss it if I get uncomfortable.

Another big area for runners is whether or not to take their standard gear on a run with them. I've run both my half marathons with my 1L water belt but I don't think I'll be wearing it for my next one. At my horror hill run I wore it and really pushed myself and you know what? That empty water belt felt like it weighed 5kg at the last .5km of that race. I was seriously considering throwing it in a ditch and getting it afterwards with my car, but since my keys were in it and I had no where else to put them I kept it on. There are some things I have to wear like my lucky hat but next time I'm going to safety pin my keys to my running bra and leave that belt at home!

So in line with my theory that one must test their running attire prior to a race, Cecilia and I have decided to wear matching Team Sparkle skirts when we run the Toronto Waterfront marathon next year. Cecilia is partial to one of the green ones and I'm thinking blue. We're lucky that she has a girlfriend in the US who will get the skirts shipped to her and then mail them to us so we can avoid duty. I'm really excited about the skirts and figure we'll order them after my half in April so we can break them in during the summer and I can get used to running in a skirt. Cecilia has a running skirt but this will be new to me. I figure it's a great mix of snazzy but also girlie while making us easy to spot if anyone comes to wish us luck!

Do you have a signature piece of running gear, or a tried and true method for breaking in something fast for race day or can you just throw on anything and rock it?

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Mix and Match.

So lots of fun and random things to talk about today. Some are happy and some are not.

So to start off, I had a great run today. I wanted to go at least 5k and was hoping for 5 miles. At the start it didn't feel as if I would be able to make my hopeful goal but in the end I made it 6.5 miles and felt awesome. My most kms run in a week was 40, 44 and 46 and I am already at 24 so I'm hopeful that maybe I'll be able to run a new total in my top three. Always have to have something to shot for!

Tomorrow is my office Christmas party and I was really excited about it until I went into my closet today to figure out what to wear. Pretty much everything that I have that I like is too tight. Everything that I could wear that would be acceptable is too big. And everything else is just AWFUL. I'm a sad mommy now. I love that I've lost 20lbs and I feel amazing, but all my nice things don't fit and that makes it pretty hard, especially on nights like this. Lucky for my hubby can't make it so my date is my running BFF Cecilia and she said she'd go with me even if I wore my pjs and another coworker/good friend told me that everyone will just be so excited to see me that they won't care what I'm wearing. I understand that all that is true, but I wanted to get dressed up all pretty and it's hard when nothing fits.

Look how cute she is!
On another happy note, I love my girls. Katrina is getting so big, and doing so much. She started to eat baby cereal this week, and is doing a great job with it. Soon she will be eating her first solids, and by soon I mean this weekend. I'm thinking sweet potato or maybe squash. Lillian is really improving her vocabulary too. She's getting much better at saying things and some of her words are really cute. She loves to say ponies like "pow-knees" and I always smile when she does. She's also getting much better at telling me what she wants and can even help pick her own food now. Makes it easier and less wasteful when it comes to meals. I love watching them interact with each other and I think they are going to be great friends.
"Tuck" - Girl loves her Duplos.

Funny Photos.

First the funny. This was my daughters' reactions to meeting Santa Claus today.
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 As you can see Lillian was less than impressed, while Katrina was indifferent about the whole experience.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Thursday that's really a Wednesday.

So this may seem like a theme this week for me, but today is my Thinning Thursday. I have lunch plans with a girl friend today and I always stress out about eating out the day or night before my weigh in and since I haven't been out with friends in a while I should really just enjoy myself and not stress out about it. I am even looking over the menu to decide what Lillian and I should have. But I digress.

So this morning I weighed myself and guess what? I'm down to 171.4! So while I honestly have to say I thought it would be more, I'm going to focus on the positive and say Woot! Go me. That is a healthy loss of 0.8 lbs from last week (technically 0.4 since I was up 0.4 last week and had to drop that) but what it did do, was push me over 20lbs lost. And I can't deny, that, is an amazing feeling. :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

16 days to go until

I turn 28! Hard to believe that I am having a birthday in just over two weeks. I'm very excited about it, even though it took me until today to realize just how close my birthday really is. I can't wait to have a wonderful night out with my husband and my little baby. Our toddler will be spending that week with her Oma so it'll just be the three of us, and I finally decided where I wanted to go for dinner. We are going to a restaurant named Flying Dog, and they have the most delicious chocolate souffle, and no I didn't pick the place based on the dessert. I was telling my husband about how I was planning to buy dessert so we could enjoy it at home after dinner because I'm very picky about dessert and don't want to pay $8 for a dessert I might not like. Plus, I might feel that I have to eat it, and that would be a waste of very valuable Weight Watcher points. So as Steve and I were talking about this, I mentioned how I didn't want to pick the restaurant based on the dessert because most don't have my ideal chocolate dessert such as chocolate mousse or souffle. Only the flying dog does. And then the bell went off in my head. We love the flying dog and haven't been there in AGES and I instantly thought why not go for my birthday!

So tonight I'm told my husband that I want to go there and he is to make a reservation for us. I am very excited and looking forward to my other meal out that day. I'm going to another awesome, albeit, healthier restaurant for lunch with Cecilia and that place is another of my favourites. So now I can have something wonderful to look forward to.

Monday, December 5, 2011

The Sunday that's really a Monday.

So on Saturday my husband was off at a conference in Toronto (Commodore 64) so to still get a weekend with his ladies, he booked today off. That means that Sunday was our Saturday and today was our Sunday. We had a wonderful weekend. Yesterday we went to the mall, and did a lot of Christmas shopping, (and as of this morning, I am DONE). We also hit up Zehrs to get the President's choice Christmas yummies, and enjoyed lunch at the mall. Lillian ate so much it was crazy. Lillian ate popcorn, a banana, a hot dog, and drank a whole thing of chocolate milk, I was thrilled. I had a great sandwich and salad. Afterwards we hit Walmart on the way home and got a heater for Lillian's room. We put our house at a warmer temperature because of the girls, and now we have a programmable heater in both of their rooms and can drop the house temperature at night again. Lillian wasn't sleeping well lately and I think it's because she was cold. After that, the girls went down for a nap, and Steve and I had a good talk. We've both been feeling a bit ignored by the other and when we try to discuss it we spend more time fighting our own side instead of listening to the other person. So we sat down while the girls slept and had a good hour long discussion over coffee. We redid our chore list and learned a lot about where the other one is coming from. Hopefully we'll have a much easier time with the little things now. I'm very excited about it!
Such a curious little face.
Today, I finally managed to get my blood work done. My doctor is checking my iron and thyroid. After the issues I faced after Lillian was born be agreed it's better to start watching it earlier this time. I spent over an hour waiting for it. Guess Monday mornings at the lab are busier than I expected, but I'm done and Steve got some time with the girls. After that I accomplished #32 on my list of 101 things! I mailed my application for Canadian citizenship! So now I wait for them to get it, and start the process. Then once I got home, the real adventure started! We dressed and fed the girls and headed out to get the last items for the Christmas shopping (Lego store anyone?), followed by a trip to the local Christmas tree place. Lillian loved it there, even though she slipped and fell in the mud. She didn't even notice. She kept eating her chocolate covered marshmellow. We laughed though. The tree we ended up with is almost 8 feet tall, and looks awesome in our house! I'm really excited to have a real tree this year, and Lillian keeps hugging it saying "tree" and "green". She also helped us decorate it while we watched Christmas specials. Lots of fun!! And we moved pizza night to today so we enjoyed our homemade pizza.

I also, did my tempo run today. It went really well. I ran a warm up and cool down of 1.0 miles at 5.2mph and then the tempo run was 2.0 miles at 5.5mph and 0.5 at 5.6mph. I was a little nervous that I couldn't do it based on the sickness, and such, but with Steve home I could concentrate on the run and not worry about the girls. I felt amazing running, but I forgot to increase the time on my treadmill when I started so it stopped at 45 minutes and I had to restart it. My bad! But I managed to run it and felt great. In fact I felt as if I could keep going, but had to stop because that's how far I was supposed to go. I'm excited for what the next run will bring and that I get to really run again this week. I'm hoping to try and beat 40km again.

So now at the end of my "weekend" we finished my Christmas shopping, had a good talk, enjoyed our pizza dinner and lunch out, bought and decorated our first real tree, had a lot of fun with our girls, maybe even started a tradition, and I rocked a run. I don't think I could ask for more!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Not sick enough to skip my run.

Now I know most people feel that if you're sick you deserve a break and usually I agree, but this bloody cold has been hanging on for a week now and I'm still coughing up a storm. I managed to run 6km twice this week (Tues/Wed) and then nothing Thursday or Friday, though it is a rest week after all, and today I said "screw you" to the cold and ran anyway. And you know what happened? My lungs opened up and my legs did their thing and I felt great. I actually felt normal while I was running. Post run my throat was dryer than normal which brought on a coughing fit, but other than that I did a normal run and felt great doing it.  So today I am thankful that my icky, icky cold is not the kind that kills your running, but the annoying kind that lets you keep running!

I did my warm up at 4.5mph, ran for an hour at 5.2 which you all know is the forever pace, and then did a cool down to hit 5.6 miles and stopped. I even did an incline of 0.5 which I haven't done this week because of the cold. All counted I ran 65:20 and ran 9km, and my girls behaved. Lillian did the help thing again but I went up, told her to go to sleep, and then she was quiet. Katrina stayed asleep until I finished showering and then woke up. She does this a lot which I really appreciate. Part of me thought I should keep going but I had to remind myself that even though I feel great running I don't need to push myself too hard because it is a REST week, which means take it easy, and actually REST. Since I had planned to only do 5 miles and did 5.6 I figured enough was enough.

Even though I'm sick my body apparently is happy to run for me. I went on with a headache and sore legs and a nasty cough, and came off without the sore legs, a lesser headache and still the same cough. My cold may be evil but it is staying out of my lungs and only hurting my head and throat. Phlegm may be gross but it doesn't stop me running, though it is doing a number on my voice!

Lillian loves her toast!
Aren't Lillian's pig tails too cute? That's the best way to keep her hair up for gymnastics.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Friday Favourites - running outside

Well we had our first bout of snow a few weeks back (November 17th it actually stayed on the ground) and I thought it might be interesting to go into my favourite outside runs. So given the choice of treadmill, outside road or outside trail, I would go with outside road run, providing the weather cooperates.

Now don't get me wrong, my treadmill is my friend and most days with two little ones, my saving grace, but something about it just feels off sometimes. It also doesn't help that I always run much faster on the stupid thing than I can outside (evil unlevel ground) so when I see that it kinda makes me feel like a loser outside. But more so I can't use all my cool toys, like my jogging stroller, my garmin, my winter running gear, etc... so I feel like something gets left behind when I run. Though honestly, I do enjoy having a bathroom with toilet paper only 5 metres away!

As for the outside run, I kinda have the best of both worlds since I live on the outskirts of town and can run in the country in 1.1km from my front door. I'm sure one day the city will be built up around me and I'll have to go 5 or 10k to hit the roads of peace, but for now I'll take them and enjoy them. I also have about 50km of trails around I can run in and I have on a few occasions but honestly, I don't enjoy them as much. To start with they are pretty narrow in many spots, and my double stroller is a beast. A path that would make passing someone with my baby jogger challenging terrifies me to take both girls. Another negative is the fear of getting lost. I am not familiar with the paths and most of the larger ones are away from my house and into other subdivisions so I don't know where to go or where I'll come out and I don't like surprises. I also have a fear of tripping. Roots, boards, trail pot holes. They are all out to get me! So far I have not tripped yet running, and (knock on wood) I intend to keep it that way! That is why I will stick to my road runs.

One beautiful thing around the roads in my area is the real tranquility I find running, that most people have to go to a trail for. I've seen deer and birds many times. In the spring I get to enjoy the sound of birds chirping, in the winter I can hear the snow crackle beneath my shoes, and far fewer cars drive by to bother me. Though it isn't all magical. When those few cars do drive by they tend to be speeding and on dirt roads that means clouds of dust and I worry about rocks flying at my babies. Also, there tend to be more "guard" dogs in the country and they will chase you a certain amount of distance beyond their property or run up and bite you in the arse! And then there is that whole incident with the pheasant. I also like the knowledge of the distances of a set route. I have a 5.2km, 6.4km, 10.6km and 12.5km routes I can take. I also can add 1.5km to any of them if I need a little extra push. I like knowing how far I have to go, so I can use my garmin to do the math of how far I've gone. Percentages sooth this savage beast!

What type of running surface do you prefer and why?

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Thinning Thursday

This week, the scale won, but I'm okay with that.

Had I done everything perfect I would be more upset. But I have been working some things out this week. There are a few very logical reasons for why I am not mad.
- I have been playing with my points since Katrina is starting to eat cereal and such now (only every other day but it's happening)
- I did not drink all my water (and I'm usually so good at this but I have needed a LOT of coffee this week to survive)
- I snacked way too much between meals and nibbled on Lillian's food more than I realized

One of these things are not an issue on their own but combined they can be pretty taxing. So I went to weigh myself this morning and my scale told me that I didn't do it right. Now I'm not sure if it's the changes I made or if it's a rollover from another week that is just catching up with me. On the positive note I managed to run a 21k on the treadmill on Friday and had a decent week despite being pretty sick. So I'll take my 0.4lbs gain and move on.

Next week will be better and everyone have a great day!